Showing posts with label combat PTSD. Show all posts
Showing posts with label combat PTSD. Show all posts

Sunday, February 3, 2019

The road you can choose is waiting

Change the road you are on 


PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
February 3, 2019

Whatever happened to you that started PTSD was out of your control. That is the only way to get PTSD. It hits you! It is not something that started inside of you. It just ended up there.

The fact you have PTSD means you survived something that could have killed you. Isn't it time you started to live like a survivor?
You have the ability to determine your own destiny from this moment on. It is up to you to suffer in silence, more afraid to ask for help, than you were of what set off PTSD in the first place, or, take control of the rest of your life.

Just like learning how to drive your vehicle and control it, you can learn how to drive your life and heal it. Just spend as much time discovering a new way of living instead of spending so much time suffering.

It isn't easy and will take a lot of hard work. Then again, it has not been easy feeling as if all hope has vanished. I can assure you it has not. You just stopped looking for it.
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Personal note: I am in a lot of pain right now with my back and did not want to show it on video. I just wanted to let you know that no matter how much you are hurting, there is always something positive to find if you look for it.

Saturday, January 26, 2019

It's running silent and angry and deep

When service turns into suffering


Combat PTSD Wounded Times
Kathie Costos
January 26, 2019

Why do people decide that they are willing to take jobs that could cost them their lives? Did they just wake up one morning and think, "I'd die for that chance?"

Whenever it happened, whenever they went to begin training for the jobs dedicated to saving lives, or defending a nation, that is exactly what they decided was worth it.

Now, all of us can understand when what they try to save us from, changes everything for us. So why can't we understand what all the times they do it, does to them?

How oblivious are we? How self-centered are we when we ignore what those jobs are doing to them? We get PTSD from one traumatic event. They get PTSD from far too many of them. Then they have this twisted thought that they were supposed to be better, stronger, and beyond reach of the residual demon of destruction.

More to the point is, how oblivious are the leaders of the men and women suffering, that they do not see their jobs cause more deaths than doing the job itself?

More in the military die as a result of suicide than die doing their jobs.

More die in the National Guard and Reserves to suicide than die doing their jobs.

More Police Officers dies to suicide than dies doing their jobs.

More Firefighters die to suicide than die doing their jobs.

According to the CDC, suicides in America have continued to increase. While some want to suggest that since it has happened to everyone else, then, it is just the way things are. As pathetic as that thought is, what they do not acknowledge is fueling the loss of lives.

These men and women decided that saving lives was worth dying for...but their own life was not worth fighting for anymore.

Why? Who gave them that impression? Who allowed the thought to penetrate their brains that they were supposed to just suffer silently instead of turning to all the others they served with to help save their own lives?

Would they do whatever they could to save one of their own?

The pain is running silent, angry and deep. It is time to look in their eyes and tell them that it is time to #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife because this time, the life needing saving is yours!

Barry Manilow - Read 'em And Weep
Lyrics
I've been tryin for hour just to think of what exactly to say
I thought I leave you with a letter or a fiery speech
Like when an actor makes an exit at the end of a play
And I've been dying for hours trying to fill up all the holes with some sense
I like to know why you gave up and threw it away
I like to give you all the reasons and what everything meant
Well, I can tell you goodbye or maybe see you around
With just a touch of sarcastic thanks
We started out with a bang
And at the top of the world
Now the guns are exhausted
And the bullets are blanks
And everything's blank
If I could only find the words
Then I would write it all down
If I could only find the voice
I would speak
Oh its there in my eyes
Oh can't you see me tonight
Come on and look at me
And read 'em and weep
If I could only find the words
Then I would write it all down
If I could only find the voice
I would speak
Oh its there in my eyes
Oh can't you see me tonight
Come on and look at me
And read 'em and weep
I've been whispering softly
Trying to build a cry up to a scream
We let the past slip away
And put the future on hold
Now the present is nothing but a hollowed out dream
And I've been dreaming forever
Hoping something would eventually come
I saw your eyes in the dark
I felt your kiss on my lips
I traced your body in the air
'Til the bodies were numb
Well, I could tell you goodbye
Or maybe see you around
With just a touch of a sarcastic thanks
But now the rooms are all empty
The candles are dark
The guns are exhausted
And the bullets are blank
And everything is blank
Oh it's there in my eyes
And coming straight from my heart

It's running silent and angry and deep

Oh it's there in my eyes
And it's all I can say
Come on and look at me
And read 'em and weep
Songwriters: Jim Steinman
Read 'Em and Weep lyrics © Carlin America Inc

Thursday, January 10, 2019

Wounded Times Broke 4 Million Because of You

On this day in 1983, I arrived at the library, selected a stack of clinical books and a dictionary because of the words "shell shock."


Today, my site reached a stunning 4 million page views and it is all due to word of mouth. In other words, because of all of you in all these countries!

You have read about how a Wounded Combat Medic's love story ended too soon 94,580 times
You have read For Those I Love I Will Sacrifice 36,535 times.
Within the 29,902 posts on this site over the last 11 years, you have shared their stories, supported causes, contacted politicians and said a great deal of prayers!

You have proven over and over again, that the troops and our veterans do matter and you are interested in what happens to them. 

You share their successes as much as you grieve for them when they suffer.

I cannot find the words to express what all of this means to me today because without you!

Saturday, December 22, 2018

It is not OK for the VA to behave this way!

Veteran caregiver program cut by 80 percent this year in Tennessee


Nashville Tennessean
Yihyun Jeong
Dec. 21, 2018
The cuts are happening at VA medical centers across the country at a time when the program is supposed to be growing. Congress approved a major expansion with the Mission Act in May. But the VA missed its deadline in October to implement new technology.
The VA cut Master Sergeant Timothy Goad and his wife, Sarah Goad, from its caregiver program this year, citing that she was doing her "spousal duty." (Photo: Goad Family)
Master Sgt. Timothy Goad was on patrol in Iraq in an armored vehicle when it was struck by an IED blast in 2005.

The incident left him with a traumatic brain injury, 60 percent hearing loss and a vision disorder that makes his eyes unable to align properly.

Then just two months later, while on another patrol — 27 hours in — the Humvee in front of him was blown up by another improvised explosive device.

When Goad ran up to help, he found one soldier with a hand nearly taken off and another with a gaping wound to the abdomen.

There was a giant hole where the door had been and nothing else.

Goad went back to base where he had to tell the soldier’s twin brother he had died.

"He has survivor's guilt," his wife Sarah Goad said in an interview with USA TODAY NETWORK - Tennessee. "This is something major that he's had to deal with, wondering why he's still here."
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And yet, on the same day this was reported by Military.com

VA Suspends All Discharges from Caregiver Program


Military.com
By Patricia Kime
21 Dec 2018
A VA Office of Inspector General investigation into the program uncovered poor management oversight that resulted in the Veterans Health Administration paying $4.8 million to caregivers of veterans who weren't eligible for the program.

The Department of Veterans Affairs on Friday announced it would temporarily stop discharging veterans from a program that provides compensation and benefits to family members who take care of them.

In a release announcing the suspension of discharges from the Comprehensive Assistance for Family Caregivers program, the VA said it was halting dismissals because of "continued concerns expressed by veterans, caregivers and advocates about inconsistent application of eligibility requirements by VA medical centers" of the program.
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Veterans kept their promise when they served their time with their lives on the line. Why would the VA think it was OK to behave this way because the veteran ended up disabled in the process of serving their end of the deal?

Thursday, October 18, 2018

Other-Than-Honorable-Discharge Vets needing help can go to the VA

VA Struggles To Reach Other-Than-Honorable-Discharge Vets In Need Of Help

WBUR News
Steve Walsh
October 18, 2018
Onan is taking advantage of the program. After years of being rejected by the VA, Onan now is getting his PTSD treatment paid for by the agency, and he hopes it helps him get back to being the person he was before the injury.
Former Marine Lance Cpl. Josh Onan was in Ramadi, Iraq, in 2006 when his Humvee was hit by a roadside bomb.
"I remember laying down in the truck," Onan said. "Waking up, there's dust, there's debris all over me, and there's an Iraqi colonel who's sitting in the truck with us, and he's just screaming, screaming. I don't understand what he's saying."

Onan suffered a head injury and post-traumatic stress disorder. During the next year, he was in and out of trouble with military officials, mainly for small infractions, which he chalks up to the medications he was taking.

Then, while on leave, he was caught with a small amount of cocaine and kicked out of the Marines.

Onan is one of the thousands of veterans who have other-than-honorable (OTH) discharges. They don't typically qualify for VA benefits, even though many have service-related trauma. And as a group they have a high suicide rate.
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Sunday, August 26, 2018

PTSD Patrol: Your buddies are your shock absorbers?

Shock Absorbers Surround You!
PTSD Patrol Sunday Morning Empowerment Zone
Kathie Costos
August 26, 2018

When we got the idea to turn PTSD Patrol into something related to vehicles, it was odd, to say the least. Once explained that people understand the vehicle they drive a lot more than the vehicle they live in, it only made sense to do it this way.

There are a lot of automotive parts that can be used to explain the vehicle you live in. Your body is your ride and we are all different but the stuff that makes it work can be linked to the stuff that goes into the vehicle you drive.

If you took a job to save others, you took on a lot more than most people have to deal with on a daily basis. That is why there are over 7 million citizens with PTSD, and you helped most of them survive.

If lives of strangers meant that much to you, then don't you think they matter to those you serve with? Ok, then why don't you get that your buddies would want to save you too?

Read about shock absorbers From Firestone







HOW DO STRUTS AND SHOCKS WORK?

The suspension on your car is made up of many components, including a set of springs that absorb bumps and road impact, a set of struts that support your springs, and a set of shocks (short for shock absorbers) that limit the bounce your car experiences by absorbing residual movement in suspension springs.
Without properly maintained struts and shocks an unexpected pothole, or even a gravel road, can actually cause the wheels of a vehicle to bounce off of the ground, which can easily lead to loss of control and collision.
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Friday, April 7, 2017

If You Missed Combat PTSD Wounded Times Today, You Missed A Lot

If you follow on Google+ the following would not be "new" news to you!
"Edmund W. Sumner was a veteran of the Air Force during the Vietnam era. He had become homeless in recent years, but on this day, he had a large family who turned out to honor his years of service."

"Largely unrecognized for a century, the names of the women veterans from the U.S. Army and the Navy now are engraved on a bronze plaque on the courthouse lawn, next to the memorial garden and other war memorials."



"Robert Celestial, Pacific Association for Radiation Survivors president, was joined by Vietnam veterans and former military civil service personnel to testify about atomic radiation and Agent Orange exposure on Guam. Frustration at lack of recognition was a common theme for many who testified." #agentorange

"Veterans are invited to attend a funeral this morning for Donald J. Burciaga, an Army veteran who died last month in Hilo with no known survivors in the state...Burciaga was an Army veteran who entered into service in Kailua, Oahu. He died March 4 at age 68 at Yukio Okutsu State Veterans Home in Hilo."

"She now lives in Florida, but came to Philly for the screening at the National Constitution Center of a documentary she funded, VA: The Human Cost of War.
The film documents “the true cost of war through the enormous sacrifices and subsequent neglect" of veterans, says Lois."
Read the story of this amazing woman and then know the woman behind the Disabled Veterans for Life Memorial!

"Duke is a service dog to a Chesapeake veteran...Duke’s owner suffered from an accident in war and suffers from PTSD and seizures, the American Humane website said." #combatptsd

A reminder of the fact that after over a decade of "raising awareness" and making money, no one has been held accountable for the outcomes.

"CharityWatch notes that there are more than 40,000 nonprofit organizations dedicated to serving the military and veterans and an estimated 400,000 service organizations that in some way touch veterans or service members."

There is a list on this link going back a couple of years and they are still good choices. If you are thinking of giving with Memorial Day coming up, check them out and as always, fully check out any charity you want to donate to.


"The suspect surrendered to law enforcement shortly after 4 p.m. Chief Rich St. John confirmed the man is in custody. St. John said the man did not have a weapon."
"Police are using bullhorn to communicate with suspect who is an Air Force veteran. 'Your wife cares about you, your kids care about you, I care about you,' said the officer pleading with the man over the loudspeaker."

Recommended for you
Veterans Kevin Jamison and Bryan Meyer talk about Kansas City's Veterans Community Project, its tiny house village for Veterans and the value their efforts are bringing to the community.

"For more than half a century, Rickles headlined casinos and nightclubs from Las Vegas to Atlantic City, New Jersey, and livened up late-night talk shows. No one was exempt from Rickles' insults, not fans or presidents or such fellow celebrities as Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin and Johnny Carson."

"
A sheriff's sergeant, two firefighters and an animal conservationist became birds of a feather to help rescue an injured bald eagle that was struggling to fly near a Kansas lake."

"And he still didn’t, right until the morning last month, when he actually moved in to his own studio apartment created from three containers. By then, that dirt lot in Midway City had been transformed into a landscaped village for formerly homeless military veterans like Harrell." #homelessveterans

"Furever Bully Love Rescue says Jess was at OIA on Wednesday with her foster owner when they made her take off her service dog vest and leash for a screening. The dog bolted out of the airport and is believed to have been hit by a car."

"Veterans account for one of every five suicides. Compared to the general population, veterans are less likely to seek care for psychiatric disorders, are more likely to successfully complete suicide, and have a significantly higher suicide risk." #combatptsd and I bet you noticed the part that they are still less likely to seek care...

"A CH-53E Super Stallion experienced a 'hard landing' Wednesday during a training flight at Marine Corps Air Station Yuma, Arizona, but the five Marines aboard were unhurt, Marine Corps officials said today."

Overmier said her husband, who attended the ceremony, talks about that horrible time now, especially as “times change” and sharing stories becomes more acceptable. “They (veterans) talk more about that now,” she said. “They tell their stories now. And they need to,” both to process them and to pass along their lessons. #combatptsd




"The ADA says that federally funded institutions - including public universities - must not block individuals the access to accommodations relevant to their disabilities. A service animal is no exception...but the animal must not represent a direct threat to individuals, and the handler must be able to keep the animal under control. UNT appears to have provided plenty of evidence that Tawan’s service dog, Cali, was “uncontrollable.”
#ptsdservicedog

"There are nine new Fisher Houses in the works this year, including two in the Bronx, one in Charleston, South Carolina, one in Connecticut, one in Alaska, and two in Florida, one in Orlando and one in Tampa . The Fisher House Foundation is also building a second facility at Keesler Air Force Base in Mississippi and its third Fisher House in Houston." 

"Galen has been a bush pilot in Alaska, a labor negotiator, has a Masters’ degree in psychology and wrote a screenplay about his life. But perhaps an even bigger accomplishment -- he and his wife Muriel will celebrate their 68th wedding anniversary next week."

“I really love this event,” said Col. Todd Fox, Fort Hood’s garrison commander. “I think this is a great opportunity for a lot of our young soldiers to see how our community sticks together even after you take off the uniform.”

"The event was part of the 2017 United Healthcare Ride to Recovery Texas Challenge, a 500-mile non-competitive, therapeutic bike tour that began Monday in San Antonio."

What if every thing you thought about yourself turned out to be bullshit? All of what you saw within your own body were just lies you convinced yourself were true? What if someone figured out that all you needed was to see the truth and gave you the chance to do it?
That is what happened to Amanda Leverage after she convinced herself that her heroism was directly tied to the suicide of a soldier she adored. It came close to destroying her until she was sent to Fort Christmas to lead a group of soldiers facing less than honorable discharges after they also sacrificed for others.
While this is the work of fiction, it involves much that we talk about everyday on this site and on #combatptsd Wounded Times.
I wrote it hoping the truth within the fiction would set the truth free and more will discover after risking their lives for the of others, they too, will find something worth living for.
Don't give up on yourself when the truth is, you still have more to give others. Live, heal and then spread hope!

"Susan Campbell was responding to an incident where a female soldier in Afghanistan had posted a detailed note online alleging bullying and victimisation before attempting suicide last week. The soldier was evacuated to a military hospital in Germany where she is reported to be in a stable condition."

PORTLAND, Maine (NEWS CENTER) -- It is with great sadness we share with you this morning the news that Meteorologist Tom Johnston’s body was found in Auburn Thursday night. He died of an apparent suicide, police said....Tom, 46, was part of the NEWS CENTER family for the past three years. You saw him most frequently on our 5:30 p.m., 6 p.m. and 11 p.m. newscasts each weekday. He was reported missing early Monday morning when he didn’t return home to Old Orchard Beach after a weekend at Sunday River Ski Resort.

"In a motion to release Hunt, two Oregon assistant federal public defenders described him as a Vietnam veteran and retired professional surveyor with no prior criminal history and long-term ties to his California community."

"A man who died Sunday at an Alachua County shooting range is believed to have committed suicide, authorities said Wednesday. The incident occurred at Harry Beckwith Guns & Range on U.S. 411 between Gainesville and Micanopy."

"So far, the MIST Program has graduated two groups of participants. "We've seen incredible success," she said. Overall, participants have benefited from increased wellness, but some of the participants' accomplishments were more personal. One service member's medical evaluation board was halted because of how much his behavioral health had improved; another reversed the downward trajectory of his marriage." #tbi

"A communication link between the U.S. and Russia used to protect their pilots flying sorties over Syria was used ahead of an American missile strike on the country."

"Dragon, a military working dog, spent his last day eating steak and playing ball.
The German shepherd served in the Army for nine years and five months before he was diagnosed with nonoperative, aggressive cancer March 31 and euthanized Thursday..."

"It turns out Dr. Chapman gave plots away for free to veterans people who lived in the neighborhood — including one for himself. He’s the only vet in the cemetery who fought in the civil war."

"Specialist Riley Gast was found dead Saturday, Fort Bliss officials confirmed over the weekend. ABC-7 first reported on Gast's disappearance last Thursday. He was last seen in a laundry building on post."

"The names on the memorial begin with U.S. Army Company No. 9 Volunteers in the Nez Perce War of 1877 and continue through the country’s present Gulf War period that officially began August 2, 1990. Since the Eagle Circle dedication, more tribal member and descendent veterans who served in the Iraq and Afghanistan war zones have been identified and will be added to the memorial."

"The service inked a $6.4 million contract March 31 for enough kits to outfit 24 infantry battalions with the technology. The contract came just 51 days after Marine leaders identified the technology, invented in a Camp Lejeune barracks room, as a valuable capability for the service, said Lt. Gen. Robert Walsh, commanding general of Marine Corps Combat Development Command..."

"A woman somehow got her head wedged in the subway doors at the last stop in the Bronx earlier this week -- and once the video was posted on Instagram, it went viral as outraged New Yorkers blasted people who didn't stop to help."....including the person shooting the video!
And just think, there are even more!