Showing posts with label post combat stress. Show all posts
Showing posts with label post combat stress. Show all posts

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Phrase changed but not opinion on PTSD crimes

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

121 NY Times veterans had no criminal history before
Iraq Vets Commit PTSD-Fueled Murders in the Wake of Returning HomePosted by Amanda Marcotte, Pandagon at 12:05 PM on January 15, 2008.Unlike the majority of civilians who commit murder, the majority of the 121 veterans documented by the Times reporters had no criminal history.This story about Iraq and Afghanistan veterans who've come back from the war only to commit acts of violence at home is a must-read. The NY Times found 121 cases of murders committed by veterans back from these wars, 1/3 of which were domestic murders, and the reporters suspect this is only a percentage of the actual murders committed, because they got that number by scouring newspapers around the country, not from statistics cultivated by the Pentagon, which, surprise surprise, doesn't collect such data. The numbers are not insignificant.

When I posted the links to the NY Times piece, I tried to point out that these veterans, these combat veterans, came home changed. Some came home changed because of PTSD and some came home almost as if the brutality of war penetrated their souls. It is possible and it is a human condition when you go through some of the things they go through. Statistically however, these incidences are few and far between. Some come home changed because of PTSD and the medications they are given or the propensity to self-medicate with alcohol and street drugs. We have years of documented suspected links between medications such as Lariam and crimes. I will continue to use the "suspected" link because we simply do not know for sure if it was the PTSD and Lariam or Lariam alone.

What I was saying, but put it rather inadequately, is that if they need help, they should get it no matter if they are in jail or in the hospital. If they are so deeply changed by what they went through, prison serves no purpose or justice. If they were only slightly changed then they need therapy even in prison. If they were just using it to try to get them off the hook, then throw the book at them.

The research I did for the suicide video lead me to numerous incidences of crimes committed by veterans. Most of the time they were against family members or significant others. These were not random crimes. We have a lot of veterans in prison right now directly tied to drug use and alcoholism otherwise known as "self medicating." We also have crimes committed because they are in fact a lot like the general population and some of us commit crimes too. No one should ever get a "get out of jail card" free for any reason, unless of course they are innocent or impaired. We all need to take a serious look at all the ramifications of combat and stop putting them into group A or B. None of them go into combat the same or for the same reason and none of them come out the same as their buddy does. The only one thing connecting all of them is that they are rare and they faced death because they served in a time of horror. Some times it comes home with them and we need to deal with it, step up when it did and try to provide the right response to it.

Leap of faith into Satan's foot

When tragedy strikes or trauma hits, there are two ways to deal with it. One is to offer thanks to God for taking care of you, making sure you got out alive and survived it. You feel as if you were saved for a reason, that your "mission" on earth is not done yet. You can look for signs of miracles. A cup and saucer from a beloved set that was not smashed after a tornado destroyed everything else you had. An icon of Christ untouched by mold from the floods of Katrina while everything else you owned was covered in it. A tree that fell inches from your child's head. We find miracles in the tiniest of things and in the most monumental of events, leaving us to think someone is watching over us, protecting us.

The other way is to feel that you were abandoned by God. That God judged you for something you did in your past and found you worthy of torture. He was not watching over you but attacking you instead. You will look back in your mind for the stories in the Bible you read remembering the judgement of God and the wrath. While your logical mind will confirm your innocence the same way Job defended his own, your spirit will be looking for the sins you committed that caused God's anger. A battle rages within you while the other type of person is joyously on their way to a new beginning.

The traumas of combat strike deeper than anything known to regular people. While other causes, from natural disasters, to crimes committed against us, to being an emergency responder or firefighter, we are not participants in creating the trauma. Law enforcement, from police to DEA agents, they are participants in creating the trauma. They are necessary but they do have to kill as they face being killed. They are involved in high speed chases and they are involved in gun fights. The trauma striking them hits harder than others are hit. They are also involved in traumatic events multiple times. Combat forces deployed face them on a daily basis no matter if a traumatic event occurs directly involving them or if they are simply on edge knowing it could, they are facing trauma everyday they are deployed. They are also participants combined with the rescuer rushing to help, recover the wounded and collect the dead.

One of the most frequent problems veterans face is that of the above, feeling abandoned by God. You cannot witness the carnage of what man does to man and think there is a God involved in any of it. You see evil in all of it while you, as well as your comrades, are forces of good battling against that evil, at the same time you know your actions are creating the same in return. It twists in your brain between logic and spirit. It becomes nearly impossible to make sense out of any of it. You know you have a job to do and this is part of your job. It's what you were trained to do, but no one trained you to deal with what comes after.

We all take a leap of faith, trusting that if our intension is good and honorable, we will be rewarded. The problem is, Satan's foot. When we are about our daily lives, sooner or later you come up against his foot making you stumble, fall, breaking your kneecaps as well as your will. Doubt enters in any hole it can find. While one of Satan's feet are busy tripping you up, his other foot gets into the act kicking things into your way. First it's little things and as you overcome them, they get bigger and bigger. Then we wonder how the leap of faith left us flat on our face.

Soldiers do their duty knowing they could die any day. They believe their intension's are good, honorable and needed. They enter into the military believing their willingness to sacrifice their lives are vital to the security of their nation. Yet once they see what they've been trained to do coming into real life in real time, they also come up against Satan's foot. The things he kicks at soldiers are doubt, sadness, grief, torment, and then he kicks in the smell, the dirty feeling that will not be washed away, the images you've seen and the residue of all of it seeping into your bones. Then it all comes crashing down on you.

PTSD rates are one out of three. It doesn't matter what caused it. A traumatic even will hit one out of three exposed to the same event. This does not necessarily mean the full blown development of PTSD but it is when it begins. Combat forces face traumatic events over and over and over again. This is why so many come out with wounded minds.

While some claim they "got over it" usually it is not the case. For most of them, PTSD has just fallen asleep ready to be awaken by another traumatic event. This is why there are so many Vietnam veterans all these years later coming to terms they brought the war back home with them. Dormant PTSD is the worst. It's almost as if it has been storing up energy while you got on with your life. The secondary stressor Satan kicks in hits you so hard you don't have control over anything anymore.

For my husband, it was the miscarriage of the twins I was carrying. His mild PTSD, along with the nightmares, flashbacks and twitches, were no longer "quirks" of a man who could still get up and go to work everyday, drink casually and cope, but he became a man out of control of his life. It happened so fast, the night I lost the twins, I had to beg him to come back to the hospital to be with me. He couldn't understand what had happened to him and he tried to find excuses for all of it.

I had an inkling of what I was dealing with because of the research into PTSD but I couldn't get him to face any of it. Even then I wanted to "cure" him expecting that I could reverse what damage had been done to him. I couldn't and he got worse until I finally convinced him to go for help.

It is a shock when PTSD awakens because making the connection between traumatic events in your life and the latest kick from Satan is difficult to make. Too often the connection is never made. Even though the flashbacks will be about the event bringing PTSD into their lives, they fail to see the relevance of any of it. This is where the families are vital to all of it. We can see when something is not right about those we love. We can see the changes in them and we witness the stuff Satan is kicking into their lives. It's up to us to either kick Satan in the ass and get them into help or be a barrier until we can.

Put yourself into their place. Remember a time in your life when you too did what you thought was right with the best intension only to find that you had to suffer for doing it. This is what they deal with as well. Most will take the flashbacks as a price they had to pay for doing what they had to do. For most of us, our lives were not on the line when we faced our own problems but for them, it is not just their lives or the lives of their friends, but also the lives of the people they had a part in killing. Multiply the feelings you had at the time by a thousand and you're close, but then you have to multiply that by every time they were exposed to trauma.

If your serviceman or woman comes home fine then take that as the same as the people who walk away from other traumatic events thanking God believing God was watching over them. If they do not then you better look for Satan's foot trying to take them down. You can't help them unless you are aware of what is being kicked at them. Learn the signs and know what to be on watch for. Remember the way they were before they left and how they came back. If you get them to go for help and you were wrong about if they needed it, you lost nothing and they gained some insight to help their friends if they should need it. If you are right in your suspicions you just kicked Satan in his ass.









Kathie Costos
Namguardianangel@aol.com
http://www.namguardianangel.org/
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http://www.woundedtimes.blogspot.com/
"The willingness with which our young people are likely to serve in any war, no matter how justified, shall be directly proportional to how they perceive veterans of early wars were treated and appreciated by our nation." - George Washington

Rate of Traumatic Stress Triples Among U.S. Troops

Rate of Traumatic Stress Triples Among US Troops
Forbes - NY,USA
01.15.08, 12:00 AM ET

TUESDAY, Jan. 15 (HealthDay News) -- The incidence of new cases of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) among combat-exposed U.S. soldiers has risen threefold since 2001, a new study finds.
PTSD is an anxiety disorder involving nightmares, flashbacks and panic attacks linked to event "triggers" that develop after exposure to combat or other extremely disturbing events.

Researchers at the Naval Health Research Center in San Diego analyzed data on more than 50,000 participants in the Millennium Cohort Study, which is tracking the health of U.S. military personnel over 22 years. The researchers compared data collected in July 2001 and June 2003 against data collected from June 2004 to February 2006.

The data included details about combat exposure, new onset PTSD symptoms, cigarette smoking and problem drinking.

Between 2001 and 2006, 40 percent of study participants were deployed, and 24 percent were deployed for the first time in support of the wars in Iraq and in Afghanistan.
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Again the re-deployment of the troops back into the carnage of urban combat with bombs blowing up on a daily basis, needs to be considered in all of this. The Army study of re-deployments increasing the risk of developing PTSD by 50% is a clear indication we have an enormous problem heading into catastrophe category.

Monday, January 14, 2008

Battlemind bullshit


14. Januar 2008
Battlemind: Preparing Soldiers for combat, home life
By Susan Huseman USAG STUTTGART
STUTTGART – Today, every Soldier headed to Iraq and Afghanistan receives Battlemind training, but few know the science behind it.

Dr. Amy Adler, a senior research psychologist with the U.S. Army Medical Research Unit-Europe, Walter Reed Army Institute of Research, visited Patch Barracks to break down the program, which is a system of support and intervention.

Not every Soldier who deploys downrange is at risk for mental health problems. The main risk factor is the level of combat experienced, Adler explained to her audience, comprised predominantly of medical, mental health and family support professionals.

Army studies show the greater the combat exposure a Soldier encounters, the greater the risk for mental health problems, including post-traumatic stress disorder, depression, anger and relationship problems. When Soldiers first return home, they may not notice any problems; sometimes it takes a few months for problems to develop.

http://germanamericanfriendshipbracelet.blogspot.com/
2008/01/battlemind-preparing-soldiers-for.html

BULLSHIT!


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Battlemind started almost a year ago and has done, nothing! Since then soldiers are still being discharge under "pre-existing" conditions, TBI is still getting confused with PTSD, they are still committing suicides and yes, homicides, and still being told they have to wait to have their wounded minds tended to. For all the "steps" taken to address the problem, it looks like they are still in training shoes learning to take baby steps, when they need a great pair of rocket roller blades! Give me a break!

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Across America, Deadly Echoes of Foreign Battles

New York Times

Across America, Deadly Echoes of Foreign Battles
The New York Times found 121 cases in which veterans of Iraq and Afghanistan committed a killing in this country, or were charged with one, after their return from war. In many of those cases, combat trauma and the stress of deployment — along with alcohol abuse, family discord and other attendant problems — appear to have set the stage for a tragedy that was part destruction, part self-destruction



Another non-combat death was reported as well.

01/12/08 MNF: W Marine dies of non-combat related cause
A Marine assigned to Multi National Force – West died Jan. 11 in a non-combat related incident in Al Anbar province. The name of the deceased is being withheld pending notification of next of kin and release by the Department of Defense.
Stories linked from ICasualties.org

St. George, Saint of Soldiers wants you to help a Vietnam veteran


A story we don't often find is how the Vietnam Memorial hurts instead of heals. This is one of their stories.


Of all the veterans I have ministered to in outreach work, SOHARD2HATE@AOL.COM has broken my heart the most. He's a good man and proved it in so many ways during his life. When I emailed him to let him know why I wouldn't be responding as swiftly as I normally did to him, he started to minister to me, knowing I was in pain. This veteran, so filled with his own pain, watching his life fall apart, unable to get to the care he desperately needs, put himself aside for my sake.

To keep his privacy, I'll call him George after St. George the Patron Saint of soldiers. St. George is always depicted in art as the warrior with a spear killing a dragon.

George found me the way most of them do, in a moment of desperation. He emailed me, told me part of his life and waited for my response. As always, I got back to him as soon as I could. He told me how a trip to the Wall in Washington did not heal him, make him feel better or comforted, but instead awakened dormant PTSD. Up until then, he had everything he worked for, a relationship and a home.

George is not alone. There have been several cases of the wall awakening the war in a lot of veterans. For them most part, the Wall does help in healing and brining out emotions to the surface. Some are not ready for what they will begin to feel, not prepared to find out the war did not leave them when they left it behind.

George lives in a part of the county where help is hard to get to. I broke my own rule when it came to him. He couldn't get to the help he needed, so I told him I'd stay with him on line until he could get into some kind of program. Usually I get the veterans to understand what PTSD, get them past the stigma up to the point where they are ready to go for help, then send them on their way. If I didn't do this, I'd never have time to get any research done. I saw something in George that I knew was rare. He is an amazing man. I don't have permission to post much about him so I won't. The point of this post is there is a veteran with PTSD who needs help. Right now he needs legal help more than anything else. It's bad enough to have PTSD but to have the additional burden of legal matters jeopardizing what little he has left is getting too much for him to cope with.

I know there are pro-bono lawyers who help veterans from Iraq and Afghanistan but George is a Vietnam veteran. They have been pushed aside and find help very hard to find. There has to be a lawyer for him out there somewhere. He lives in Pennsylvania. His PTSD has ability to fight for himself away and he's up against a real lawyer taking advantage of his limited capacity to advocate for himself. If you know of a lawyer who may be willing to help him, email him to get some more information. Believe me, this man is very unique and I'm not just saying that because of what he did for me when I was devastated by losing my job, but because of the countless emails flying between the two of us. He was able to be open and honest with me, like so many others are because they have nothing to prove to me. George proved his compassion, his faith in God and how loving his heart is throughout every email. Don't let this veteran, this rare man fight this legal battle on his own. He needs our help. After that then we can try to find someplace to help him with PTSD to heal.

Pass this post on to anyone you know in Pennsylvania so that the help available can find him. He lives near State College, Pa. He needs legal help with a family matter, not a criminal one. He also needs help with his claim for PTSD. Help a great Vietnam veteran stand proud again.
Kathie Costos
Namguardianangel@aol.com
http://www.namguardianangel.org/
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http://www.woundedtimes.blogspot.com/
"The willingness with which our young people are likely to serve in any war, no matter how justified, shall be directly proportional to how they perceive veterans of early wars were treated and appreciated by our nation." - George Washington
Let's show Washington we can live up to what he said.

UK: Gulf War Vet with PTSD sent to jail for knife attack

Former soldier jailed
Published on 12/01/2008


Seriously wounded: Gordon McPake was stabbed in the flat above the Jester pub on Botchergate By Staff Reporter

A FORMER soldier who stabbed a friend twice with a kitchen knife during a drunken argument has been jailed indefinitely.

A judge at Carlisle Crown Court yesterday told 41-year-old Graham Tongue he was lucky not to have killed Gordon McPake in the incident in a flat above the Jester pub in Botchergate 11 months ago.

Tongue, of Borland Avenue, Botcherby, pleaded guilty to wounding with intent to cause grievous bodily harm.

He will have to serve at least 40 months in prison before even being considered for parole and will then be released only when the authorities are satisfied he is no longer a danger to the public.
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http://www.newsandstar.co.uk/news/viewarticle.aspx?id=586016

One more case of a combat veteran falling into the abyss because he was not helped. One more time a veteran had to suffer for being wounded by his nation asked of him. One more person suffering for a crime against them, that may have not have happened if this veteran was taken care of. I am not so blind that I think all crimes committed by veterans are all tied to PTSD but the fact is, the majority of them are in one shape or form or another. Some crimes are committed because the veteran will seek self-medication instead of psychological help. Some are committed because of medications. Each case is different but what they all have in common is that a veteran has paid the price and so have everyone else they came into contact with.

Friday, January 11, 2008

Study: September 11 Caused PTSD, Extreme Anxiety



Study: September 11 Caused PTSD, Extreme Anxiety
Study: September 11 Caused PTSD, Extreme Anxiety
Associated Content - Denver,CO,USA
By Article Writers Inc., published Jan 11, 2008



It has been almost seven years since the tragedy of 9/11 and yet it continues to haunt us and affect our lives. I shall never forget that day as I was in New York when the horrendous terrorist attacks took place. I stood in horrified silence as the World Trade Center towers crumbled into the earth unleashing enormous plumes of dust and debris. All I could feel was my heart sinking into deep despair; a sense of helplessness, fear, and frustration. I was not alone. Many people who witnessed the attacks either in person or on the TV felt that incredible shock and anxiety after seeing the country's institutions and symbols of power attacked and destroyed; our notion of American invulnerability shattered.

From that day on, the catastrophic attacks have taken a toll on the health of many individuals. According to several research studies, the psychological trauma of 9/11 and the continued stress and anxiety over false terrorist alarms has led to an increased risk of heart ailments including heart disease, high blood pressure, and strokes.

Dr. E. Alison Holman of the University of California and her team conducted a study, released on Jan. 7, on the mental and physical health of 2,592 individuals (who had either witnessed the terrorist attacks in person, or saw it live on TV, or had not seen any live coverage) three years after 9/11 happened. Her team found that within a few days after the attacks, 10.7% of the individuals suffered from some form of PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) including symptoms of edginess, depression, extreme anxiety, difficulty sleeping, and even fear of loud noises. Around 53% of individuals who suffered from extreme anxiety were found to be more susceptible to cardiovascular ailments including heart disease and high blood pressure.

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After 9-11 the reporters took a look at survivors. They looked at the children and they looked at emergency responders.

Paging Dr. Gupta blog

Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Flashing back to 9/11

Today, on this sixth anniversary of 9/11, the country will mourn together. For most of the country, it will be a reminder, an anniversary, but for thousands of others it could be psychologically devastating. It could cause something known as PTSD or post traumatic stress disorder. The symptoms can be awful and the research shows us the reminders don't help.

We know on average 4 percent of the general American public suffers from PTSD, but one in eight 9/11 rescue and recovery workers had PTSD, even years after the attack, according to the World Trade Center Health Registry. We know firefighters developed PTSD at 2 times the rate of police officers, but both groups continue to suffer today. We also know that PTSD is an anxiety disorder that is marked by sudden and intense fear, along with feelings of desperation, hopelessness and outright horror. We know it can be difficult to treat.

During the last six years, there has been a growing body of research on PTSD, looking at the survivors of 9/11 and veterans from the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan. For example, researchers are looking at propranolol, a blood pressure medication, as a possible treatment for PTSD. The idea is that this medication will block the adrenaline surge associated with a traumatic event. If you can block that release of adrenaline, the terrible memories may not be seared into the brain, and that might reduce the risk of future PTSD. There are some emergency rooms that now give the medication immediately after a traumatic event. There also is video game technology used for returning veterans. I tried it out myself and understood the premise that by exposing someone to previously traumatic events in a controlled setting with psychologists standing by, you could learn what is specifically traumatic, and deal with it. (Watch Video)



http://www.cnn.com/HEALTH/blogs/paging.dr.
gupta/2007/09/flashing-back-to-911.html




New York-Presbyterian Hospital/Weill Cornell Medical Center
'Virtual 9/11' Brings Ground Zero Survivors Real Healing

By E.J. Mundell
HealthDay Reporter
Monday, November 20, 2006; 12:00 AM



MONDAY, Nov. 20 (HealthDay News) -- Psychologists estimate that hundreds, even thousands, of people directly affected by the events of Sept. 11, 2001, are still crippled by post-traumatic stress disorder.

Could a virtual-reality "revisiting" of that horrific day actually help them?

New York City psychiatrist Judith Cukor believes that it can.

"We are getting tons of calls for 9/11-related post-traumatic stress disorder -- it's five years out, and we are still seeing people who have never had treatment," said Cukor, an instructor in the department of psychiatry at New York-Presbyterian Hospital/Weill Cornell Medical Center. "A lot of people have had traditional treatment, too, but it's not helping."

Cukor is supervising a unique clinical trial that uses high-tech virtual reality to help fight the more stubborn cases of 9/11-linked post-traumatic stress disorder, or PTSD. "We're seeing very positive results here, in terms of people finally getting better," she said.

For people who suffer from the emotional numbness, terrifying flashbacks, nightmares and avoidance behaviors of PTSD, "exposure therapy" remains the gold-standard treatment. The therapy involves patients being asked to imagine in detail the past event that caused them such pain.

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/
content/article/2006/11/20/AR2006112000316_pf.html







Hispanic Community


Release Date:May 15, 2006, 12:01 AM US Eastern time

PTSD Affected Hispanic Patients in New York for Months After 9/11

By Joel R. Cooper, Contributing Writer
Health Behavior News Service


Low-income, immigrant, primary-care patients in New York City continued to suffer the psychiatric effects of 9/11 long after the original terrorist attack, says a new study.

“Many of these patients, for cultural or economic reasons, shun traditional mental health services, and rely heavily on their primary care doctors for the provision of mental health intervention and treatment,” said lead author Yuval Neria, Ph.D., a professor at Columbia University and co-director of the Center for the Study of Trauma and Resilience, New York State Psychiatric Institute.

In another finding, the study negated the notion that post-traumatic stress disorder may develop among those experiencing terrorist events second-hand, such as while watching media coverage of the attacks on television. PTSD did not show up in individuals only indirectly exposed to the 9/11 attacks — unless they were at increased risk for the disorder to begin with.

For the study, published in the latest issue of General Hospital Psychiatry, researchers screened adult primary care patients for PTSD in the months following the 9/11 attacks. The patients — 930 men and women ages 18 to 70 — were seen at the New York Presbyterian Hospital, Columbia University Medical Center. The majority were low-income immigrants — primarily Hispanic.


“Many in the population under study would be reluctant to seek psychiatric help for fear of being stigmatized within their communities, even though they are, in fact, at increased risk for PTSD and its associated illnesses,” Ng said.

http://hbns.org/getDocument.cfm?documentID=1269



If you look back you will find the news reports for the earlier studies done. Most of the time the emergency responders have a higher level of PTSD because of how often they come into traumatic situations. Police have a higher level. Combat forces even a great level than that. As with all wounds there are degrees of how much damage is done.

With all traumatic survivors there is a time difference between when the event happens and the trauma hits. Some will have mild PTSD, be able to more or less cope with it. Some will spiral into full blown PTSD symptoms right away. Others will experience a slow progression of it. Others will not experience the problems until many years later when a "secondary stressor" hits.

We need to look at all causes of trauma to understand what the combat forces are going through because for them it is not just one incident but many of them, more horrific and compounded for the term of deployment.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Chaplain Struggles with PTSD from Time in Iraq


Chaplain Struggles with PTSD from Time in Iraq
by Jane Arraf
All Things Considered, January 6, 2008 ·
Chaplain Douglas Fenton is quite matter-of-fact as he tells the story of the severed foot.

He'd been deployed to Baquba, Iraq. Soldiers handed him a cardboard box containing the foot they had just found, a foot belonging to one of their buddies whose body had already been sent home. They didn't know what else to do with it. "They did the right thing," he says.

And he did the right thing. He took the box and sat with it on his lap on a helicopter flight as pilots fired flares to deflect potential heat-seeking missiles. That's the unimaginable, everyday horror of war.

It took its toll on Maj. Fenton. I first met him in May in Baquba, where he was chaplain for the 1st Cavalry Division's 3rd Brigade. I would go out on clearing operations with soldiers fighting insurgents who had been burying improvised explosive devices so deep in the ground that when they exploded, they could flip over armored vehicles. Exhausted and grief-stricken, the soldiers would come back to the base long enough for showers and too often, memorials, and then go out and fight all over again. As brigade chaplain, Fenton was the one who flew to see the wounded and dead. By the time he left last August, he had prayed over 88 dead soldiers.
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Milo Von Strom update on a man of courage

In November of 2006 I post the following story about Milo Von Strom. A couple of days ago, he came across the posting and emailed me. I asked him how it's been going and he wrote back with a great update of what has happened since then. This is the post that was on my other blog, now titled Screaming In An Empty Room.

Screaming In An Empty Room: Veterans’ mental health needs ig...
VIRGINIA — Milo Von Strom remembers the day the chopper flew over, spraying to kill the leaves on the trees, and how the spray stuck to his skin.

'They have really been helping me'
Linda Tyssen Mesabi
Daily News
Wednesday, November 22nd, 2006 07:59:13 PM
VIRGINIA — Milo Von Strom remembers the day the chopper flew over, spraying to kill the leaves on the trees, and how the spray stuck to his skin.
Don’t worry, the soldiers were told. The defoliant called Agent Orange would make it easier to spot the enemy in the jungle — and was no danger to humans. So they were told.
Von Strom knows better. In the 37 years since Vietnam, the Virginia clay artist has battled post-traumatic stress disorder and a skin disease connected to Agent Orange.
The Department of Veterans Affairs is finally helping him cope, Von Strom said, and he is grateful. Through his military-related disability, Von Strom has received new tools for his work as a clay artist. “They’re trying. They have really been helping me.’’
Von Strom came back from Vietnam vowing to focus on being an artist. “I never wanted to harm anything again,’’ he said at his home where his basement serves as a studio for him and his artist wife Laura J. Thelen.
His poem, “Man of Clay,’’ explains his feelings.
Every time... I work with clay
a warm feeling of oneness with the earth... gentle washes over my soul.
Because... I know that this wonderful skill.. that I have... is a gracious gift from God.
And... there is no more wonderful feeling... on this earth
Than to be able... to create... what you dream.
The road since Vietnam has been bumpy for Von Strom and it took its toll on family life and previous marriages, he said. Medication and learning to cope have helped. “I don’t want to do anything negative. I just want to do positive things. I don’t want to destroy no more things.’’
When he was classified as 100 percent disabled, he learned of a VA program called Independent Living, he said. There was a possibility he could be retrained in another field, but Von Strom said his interest was in art. “I like pottery. It mellows me out,’’ he said.
Through the program he received two tons of clay, a new pottery’s wheel to create his pieces, a kiln in which to fire the pieces and a computer to display artworks for purchase. “They gave me the works,’’ Von Strom said, adding that Scott Rozell of Eveleth built the computer for him. He also credited County Veterans Service Officer Wilson Spence for his expertise and assistance.
Von Strom has something else to be proud of — both his and his wife’s pottery have been selected for permanent display in the Tweed Museum of Art at the University of Minnesota-Duluth. “I was so happy,’’ he said. Von Strom and Thelen offer pieces for purchase at the Kess Gallery in Ely, and Fortune Bay sponsored them in an art show.
Von Strom laughed as he recalled how he “got yelled at’’ in high school for drawing. Teachers would tell him to “quit being a daydreamer and start paying attention.’’ But for Von Strom, there was no other option. “All I ever wanted to do was just do my art.’’
A decade after Vietnam he received a bachelor of fine arts degree in drawing and prints from the University of Wisconsin-Eau Claire, then was certified to teach art through UW-Menomonie. His master’s degree specialty at UW-Superior was ceramics. Over the years he has taught art in area schools and the college and worked with an art co-op. But the PTSD made it difficult for him, and working on his own seemed to be his niche.
He operated a studio in an old church next to his home, but when money was tight and he and his wife drove over-the-road trucks to California, vandals destroyed much of the studio. Now he operates in his basement.
And over the years he struggled — first to get the VA to acknowledge his PTSD and then the Agent Orange. “They kept denying the Agent Orange poisoning,’’ he said, even though he was plagued with flareups of chloracne that produced acne-like conditions and redness of his skin. He proved to himself that “there’s nothing you can’t do,’’ and is happy with receiving the equipment and supplies for his art. “If you don’t try it, you’re never going to know.’’
Von Strom had volunteered for the draft in 1967 and was sent to Korea as a guard on a missile base. It was there he believes the seed for PTSD was planted. An angry guard dog attacked him. He was able to keep the dog from his throat, but the dog tore into his arm. Years later, the nightmares of the dog’s teeth come back to haunt him. “Little things can set you off,’’ he said.
In Vietnam he was at a base camp overrun by the enemy. Then came the Agent Orange. Von Strom was riding in the back of a 5-ton Army truck, hauling ammunition, when the helicopter dropped its deadly load. “It was a sticky substance. It lands on your skin. It kind of irritates you. We didn’t get to take a shower for two days,’’ Von Strom said. “I noticed I had boils on the back of my neck and back. They said they were just from dirt. But there were no leaves on the trees and there were dead rats along the road.’’
And there were children with their hands out, an image that moved Von Strom to write a poem he called “Legacy.’’
Thousands of ancient-faced children clad in salvaged rags stand, sit and lie by the side of a hot, dusty roadside,
Staring at us with dreamless eyes as we parade like mighty warriors through their battered village.
And... as we pass, they extend their bony bronzed hands
Wanting more than the meager morsels thrown to them.
War leaves... Innocent children crying without fathers, weeping women without lovers and millions of poor, puzzled people without a country.
“War sucks,’’ Von Strom said. “There’s no way you can get around it.’’ But at least the VA is working to help, he said. “They know we’ve been wronged. They’re trying to make it right. You can’t be mad at them. They’re getting me to a point where I can almost function as a person. It changed my life totally.’’
http://www.virginiamn.com/mdn/index.php?sect_rank=1&story_id=207507


While this is a great example of what can be done when there is help available Milo, along with too many other veterans are still paying the price of a war that should have ended over 30 years ago. It hasn't. At least not for them. Their bodies still pay the price and their minds still fight the battles. This is an update from Milo. As always, it is posted because he wished his story to be told so that he could help others feel they are not alone.


For most of the 35 years that have gone since I was in Vietnam, I guess you could say that I have been trying to cope with life in general. I have been divorced twice, which I am not proud of. In my younger years after Vietnam Nam I lived my life in the fast lane. I was into drugs for a while, because the habit followed me from my overseas tour. And it probably didn't help that I hung around with other Veterans that also had drug related problems at the time.

After a while it was like my whole world was falling apart and all I could you was watch it happen, because I just didn't give a damn about anyone or anything.

It showed in everything and on anyone that came in contact with me. My family and marriage suffered the most, because I didn't seem to have a purpose or a desire to live any more. Every time I made an attempt to better my life someone shut the door in my face and tried to ignore my existence. So I felt sorry for myself and turned back to alcohol and of course drugs.

But one day after a straight year of partying I stopped and turned around to watch my friend, (who has died of an illness he got in Vietnam,) drag a case of beer across my yard to the house. It was at this time that my life started to change. At that moment , I no longer wanted to be me.

The next day I enrolled into college in a Fine Arts program. I decided to try and change my direction once again. Of course, like always, there were problems when I attempted to register, because administration felt that my grades were not good enough from high school to get into U.W. Eau Claire, Wisconsin's system. I didn't play very fair and laid it on some poor person that if he rejected me, at this point in time , that I would take my own life and that it was his call. A few hot words were exchanged and then some how I got enrolled on probation for the 1st semester and the rest of my schooling is history. I graduated in 1979 with a Bachelors Degree in Drawing and Prints,B.F.A. , and went on to get my Comprehensive Degree in Art Education K-12.

But on the night of graduation another traumatic incident happened. Only my wife's parents attended my wonderful moment, my wife decide to leave me and was a no show. I didn't accept any of the many job offers. I moved away to lick my new wounds at my sister's house in Minnesota. I once again was experiencing another set back in my life. I was once again lost without a reason to continue. The only woman that I ever loved divorced me and took my son away from me and left me again with nothing. And... I didn't blame her.

I knew something was wrong with me and finally realized that she just got tired of dealing with my uncalled for anger . I would get angry over the littlest things and wonder why a few seconds later, after I terrified everyone that was unlucky to be there at that moment . So I became a recluse and just got a part-time bartending job at a local bar and dabbled with my pottery on the side.

to be continued


As you can see this is what happened to him before the article was written about him. Milo went through what most of them go through. Their lives fall apart. They try to get back on their feet and "get over it" but deep inside they know something is wrong. Their families and friends decide they are just not worth dealing with. Mostly because they haven't a clue what the veteran is going through. I don't know what keeps people from being invested enough in someone they claim to love to find out why they changed, but they do. It's not rocket science here. It's hard to understand but once you know where all the odd reactions are coming from, it's much easier to understand you are not looking at a normal person suddenly turning into a horror movie like Jekyll and Hyde. There is a reason for the transformation and the mood swings. All you have to do is invest the time to learn where it is coming from instead of letting your eyes glaze over when someone is trying to explain it to you.

Milo also emailed me about his health issues dealing with Agent Orange. Again, posted in his words with his blessing.


Kathie :You asked in your e-mail how I was dealing with the agent orange. Well ...when I have good days and look like most everyone else in this world I'm ding fine. It's those bad days when the agent orange poisoning decides to come to the surface in the facial area. It become a contest to see who will win the best looking pizza and I can win hands down. I think you get the picture. It is time to stay indoors and hope everything decides to heal fast, so you can join the human race again.

I asked my doctor if the face is the only place that the poison surfaces and he said , no it can show up on any part of your body that it decides to at any time . It usually appears if I am in any amount of stress and stays anywhere from a couple of days to a week. And believe me it does affect your self esteem,confidence and your desire to go out in public, so I guess it does put a damper on your social life .

I used to teach art, but that became to stressful, because I taught K-12. All of the preparation and the way that I had to adapt to all the different age groups got to be to much for me. I just didn't enjoy being around that many people. Maybe it was the parents that turned me off. I would get so irritated when I realized that a parent was doing there child's drawing and art work for them. When I felt that was the case I would ask the child in class to draw something similar and when he or she couldn't I would get very frustrated with the parent.

I like teaching college, because most of the students seems to like working in clay and I was getting paid for something that I would have done for free.

I asked my doctor if there was a cure for agent orange poisoning like I have and he replied...no. He gave me medications that helped heal my sores, but all of them only worked for a short time. I could tell that my doctor felt bad that he couldn't help me, but he said that he would make it as comfortable as he could for me. He is now retired and I do miss him. So...I guess I go day by day in dealing with this illness. Some weeks I hold my own and some weeks I lose, suffer and hide myself from everyone . What can I say ?

Life goes on and I am still here and part of it, so I try to make the most of it every day. I only get scared when I start wondering if it is worth the effort or not. So far I have enough caring people around me so as not to be selfish and take the easy way out of a lousy situation . At least I still know that I don't want to make anyone else feel like I do every day of my life. I do thank God for giving me a gift, when it comes to creating art. So far He never gives me more that I can deal with and for that I will always be grateful for His blessing.


There are hundreds of thousands of men and women like Milo. Their stories need to be told that we can all learn from them. Not just about how this country forgets the warriors when they are no longer deployed, but we forget about how many suffer after their guns are put away and the take off their uniforms. Milo is just one example of the kind of people who won over my heart so long ago. I thank him for sharing his story with me and with anyone else going through this. It will take more people of courage to be willing to talk before the stigma of PTSD is ended and more to come forward suffering from Agent Orange before we stop using these kinds of weapons. Too often it is those we send who end up proving they are also human victims of these weapons.

PRIVATE GEORGIA HOSPITAL GETS FUNDS TO TREAT VETERANS' PTSD

PRIVATE GEORGIA HOSPITAL GETS FUNDS TO TREAT

VETERANS' PTSD -- Phoebe Putney Memorial Hospital will

develop a regional post traumatic stress disorder center

whose mission will ultimately help American veterans

plagued by the experiences of war.



Phoebe to get funds for PTSD

* About 200 of the 4,700 veterans enrolled at an Albany clinic have been diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder, a hospital official says.

Barbara Rivera Holmes



ALBANY — Phoebe Putney Memorial Hospital received Monday the mock check of a $1.6 million appropriation from Congress for the development of a regional post traumatic stress disorder center whose mission will ultimately help American veterans plagued by the experiences of war.

The hospital, which has been charged with creating and implementing a Novel Working Model for a Technological Regional Center of Excellence for Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, will lead the network of researchers and caregivers responsible for amassing data on the syndrome, a mental disorder triggered by an outside event, as well as treatment outcomes. By some federal estimates, about 18 percent of war veterans have PTSD, sometimes referred to as “shell shock.”
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http://www.vawatchdog.org/08/nf08/nfJAN08/nf011008-6.htm


When I first read this, I thought great idea since this is going to take everything they can shove at it to take care of our veterans. Then my stomach began to twist into knots. We are all aware of the privatizing crap Bush and his pals have been pulling off. I can't even manage to trust the man with the ability to put on two black socks on his own, so I question everything he does. I know congress did this to address the problem but as president, he should have prepared the governmental agencies for all of this. He didn't. He sold the responsibility out to the pals he owed favors to. Our troops who became wounded combat veterans have been paying the price for all of this. Now it's gotten to the point Congress has to do emergency measures to address what Bush failed to do. This is happening all over the country. "Faith based" groups are paid to pick up the slack but they have managed to hit only a fraction of the need. Most of them are into evangelizing them into their own flock instead of addressing the desperate needs they come in with. All in all this sucks for them. I can't help but think this was all part of his plan selling off the government to private industries dedicated to making a buck no matter where it came from or who had to suffer so they could get it.

Friday, January 4, 2008

Ottawa failing to support soldiers' families: military ombudsman

Ottawa failing to support soldiers' families: military ombudsman
Last Updated: Friday, January 4, 2008 9:35 PM ET
CBC News
The outgoing military ombudsman is criticizing Ottawa for failing to provide adequate support to families of fallen and injured soldiers, especially those with post-traumatic stress disorder.

In an exclusive interview with CBC News, Yves Côté said his office has dealt with many families who complain of too few answers after a death in Afghanistan or little help after loved ones return home with mental health problems.

"All too often, the system is just 'we'll come to you when we come to you'," Côté said. "Just take the time to show you have a heart as an organization and care about people."

Côté, who has served as ombudsman since 2005 and is now switching gears to become the associate deputy minister of justice, has condemned the military in the past for its relations with soldiers' families.

On Friday, his last day on the job, he said there has been little improvement.

"These people do suffer a lot, and sometimes they tend to be forgotten ... It is our high moral job to look after them and to make sure the right thing is done for them by the government of Canada," he said.
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http://www.cbc.ca/canada/story/2008/01/04/military-ombudsman.html?ref=rss

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2008/01/harper-government-failing-to-support.html

The fight back from PTSD

From The Times
January 5, 2008
by Martin Fletcher
The fight back
Times Online - UK

On the front line in Iraq and Afghanistan, British soldiers are losing legs or arms, their sight – but the loss that each sustains goes far beyond the physical. On the ski slopes of Colorado, they begin rebuilding their shattered lives

Watch the audio slide show of British soldiers skiing
Adam Nixon pauses briefly to admire the breathtaking view of the Colorado Rockies, with their icy peaks and forested flanks. Then the young British soldier launches himself down the mountainside, carving long arcs in the snow. He is not the most graceful skier, but no matter. Joy lights up his face, and with good reason.

In March 2004, in the heat and dust of faraway Iraq, a pipe bomb exploded during a riot in Basra. Fourteen British soldiers were injured, but none as badly as Nixon. A week later, he regained consciousness in Birmingham’s Selly Oak hospital to find both legs shattered. He spent the next two years in hospital, undergoing more than 20 operations. His doctors finally amputated his left leg in May 2006, and they are still fighting to save his right one. Nixon, 24, once ran ultra-marathons of 70 miles or more; now he is in a wheelchair and constant pain. He suffers from flashbacks, panic attacks and insomnia – classic symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). He plies himself with painkillers and anti-depressants, had a breakdown earlier this year and has, at times, been suicidal.

In skiing, however, Nixon believes he has finally found salvation. Strapped into a bucket seat spring-mounted on a mono-ski, he has discovered that anything is possible if he is sufficiently determined, and that life is worth living again. He has reached a turning point, he says. “This is the most fun I’ve had in years. Until now, I’ve pretty much been a bum. I’ve just stayed at home and festered, but I’ve had enough of dwelling on the past. I want to get going.”

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Thursday, January 3, 2008

Baylor researchers collaborate with rats for PTSD study

I found the following from Baylor Proud blog. Nice blog. Check it out when you get a chance here.


Baylor researchers working to treat PTSD
Researchers from Baylor, Texas A&M and the US Department of Veteran Affairs are working together to treat and possibly prevent post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), and the collaborators recently received $2.7 million from the federal


I keep hoping to read something inventive, something promising, something that gives one single indication the "researchers" have a clue what PTSD is. Every time it turns out to be a waste of time to read it. They keep going over things that have been done over to death for over 30 years! When will they really start to take a look at the people who have PTSD and take it from there?

Endeavors

Searching For The Source

Baylor researchers collaborate to treat-and possibly prevent-post-traumatic stress disorder.

By Franci Rogers


As an intern at a Veterans Affairs hospital seven years ago, Matthew Schobert encountered post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) for the first time.

A Vietnam veteran had been admitted to the hospital for a routine medication adjustment. Schobert recalls that the man exhibited some of the classic symptoms of the disorder: he was distant and reserved, and he chose to remain silent most of the time, especially about his time in combat. His case made an impression on Schobert, who was then a graduate student at Baylor University's School of Social Work, and sparked an interest in the mental health issues of those who have served in the military.

Schobert earned his Master of Social Work degree in 2002, in addition to his Master of Divinity degree from Truett Seminary (1999), and now works at the Waco Veterans Affairs Medical Center as a licensed clinical social worker in the acute psychiatric unit. He continues to see PTSD patients, including a new influx from the conflicts in Iraq and Afghanistan.

While Schobert sees veterans and active duty personnel with a variety of mental health issues, he often wonders about the causes of PTSD.

"I have some friends who have had three deployments, and they talk about the graphic and difficult things they've seen, but they are just fine," Schobert says. "And there are others who have been deployed once, but when they come back I see symptoms of PTSD and encourage them to talk to someone. It makes you wonder why."

Researchers at Baylor are hoping to help find that answer.


Investigating PTSD


Last fall, Baylor, Texas A&M University and the VA received a $2.8 million grant from the U.S. Army Medical Research and Materials Command to study PTSD. A portion of the three-year grant will fund research in neuroscience and computer science at Baylor.


PTSD is an anxiety disorder that can occur after experiencing or witnessing a traumatic event. Although many people associate PTSD with military combat, any kind of life-threatening event can create the trauma. Survivors of natural disasters (such as Hurricane Katrina), terrorist attacks (such as 9/11), and physical or sexual assaults can experience PTSD. Even witnesses to such events, such as first responders or military personnel, can develop PTSD. While it is natural to be stressed and anxious after a traumatic event, people who develop PTSD exhibit chronic symptoms which don't subside and begin to interfere with day-to-day life.


Those suffering from the disorder can exhibit a variety of symptoms. They may have flashbacks of the incident, become hyper-vigilant, suffer from social anxiety, be prone to impulsive behavior, avoid normal activities, be unable to sleep or eat, and/or suffer from depression. They are more likely to abuse alcohol or drugs, become unemployed and have marital problems.


The treatment for the disorder, according to the National Center for PTSD, can include psychotherapy (or talk therapy), medication or both. But it can be difficult to treat.


That's why Baylor researchers are excited about their work. Not only could their research help those already living with PTSD, but it could also help prevent it.

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http://www.baylormag.com/dept.php?id=000686

The rates of PTSD have always been one out of three. At least that was the rate from the last thirty years. Doesn't matter the source of the trauma but one thing that comes out more often is that people who are exposed to it more get hit harder by it.

Combat is number one. That's because they not only participate in it, they are exposed to it over and over again. It's not just once during a deployment, but many times. Redeployments increase the risk by 50%. This is why we have such high numbers in combat veterans, plus you also have the survival rate keeping more severely wounded alive.

Down the list you find police, firefighters and other emergency responders. Think of the traumatic events they are exposed to, again more than once. Some have their entire careers with one traumatic event after another.

Researchers have to be serious about all of this. Rats do not try to save lives. Rats do not bond to others, yet rats and animals they have been studying for years show trauma symptoms. That does not mean it's PTSD but it does mean it's animal instinct. Remember the Christmas tsunami and the reports of animals heading up to higher ground before it hit? They had elephants picking people up with their trunks and taking them to safer ground. Dogs have saved people. They use dogs to sense when a seizure is coming in epileptic people. Animals experience trauma but trauma does not hit all animals turning them into timid creatures. It makes some of them angry enough to kill. The day they can study a rat having a flashback is the day I give them credit for trying.

I've talked to these guys for 25 years. It comes down to this. There are three types of basic personalities. Selfish, sensitive and a mix of both. As with anything it depends on the degrees of the personality. The selfish will survive trauma, feel lucky like they deserved to live because they were born untouchable mattering more in the grand program than others. The mixed ones feel that way too but see a purpose in their survival and they go off to help the others. That is their focus, not themselves as much as what they can do.

The really sensitive people take it all in. They don't feel lucky to be alive as much as they are sickened by what happened. They want to help and usually do, but they feel it all in the walls of their soul. They take in the sites, sounds, smells and all are born within them. You don't want this kind of "birth pang" that's for sure.

They say that no one comes back from combat the same way and everyone is changed. That's true but no on comes out of any kind of trauma the same way. Life changes people. The next time "researchers" try to tell you that they found the answer to PTSD in rats, then they can figure out how to send them into combat and let them prove it.


Here is a case to point to.

A Mother's Mission

While serving in Iraq, Noah Pierce survived the bombs, the snipers, and countless encounters with the enemy.

But his family and friends say it was the guilt that finally overcame him.

"The demons and the pain...he's too sensitive," said his mother, Cheryl Softich. "He couldn't handle the innocents that were killed, the kids he got attached to. He was a good boy, he had a heart."

When Noah came home from Iraq in April of 2006, he was 22. He had served two tours of duty there; two years of his young life. He tried to readjust to life back in Eveleth. He went hunting with his step-dad, and partied with friends.

But it was difficult. Noah was depressed, he suffered from nightmares, and drank to get through the days. Doctors diagnosed him with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, or PTSD. They recommended he get counseling. But he didn't go, instead spending much of his time convincing himself and others that he was getting better.

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http://www.wdio.com/article/stories/S302385.shtml?cat=10349



You can say that being sensitive makes them weak but it doesn't. It just makes them feel it all. They are not cowards or they wouldn't have joined. They are the kind of people who think they can make a difference and that's why they join. Talk about bravery! Wanting to change something like they are willing to go into takes either the most brave or the most foolish. The men and women who develop PTSD have it hit them because of what happened to them as well as what happened to others. Flashbacks when it is caused by combat trauma comes with the harm being done to others more often than the harm done to them.

Kathie Costos
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"The willingness with which our young people are likely to serve in any war, no matter how justified, shall be directly proportional to how they perceive veterans of early wars were treated and appreciated by our nation." - George Washington

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

What They Found in the Wastebasket

January 01, 2008
What They Found in the Wastebasket
The McClatchy newspapers continue their great series about whether and how the VA system is serving, or under-serving, returning combat veterans with PTSD.
In their recent story, "Suicide Shocks Montana into Assessing Veteran's Care," which by the way is an excellent fact-filled article, there is this troubling mention about what Chris Dana's dad found in his wastebasket, after Chris shot himself last March. Let's let the McClatchy papers tell the story:
HELENA, Mont. — Chris Dana came home from the war in Iraq in 2005 and slipped into a mental abyss so quietly that neither his family nor the Montana Army National Guard noticed.He returned to his former life: a job at a Target store, nights in a trailer across the road from his father's house. When he started to isolate himself, missing family events and football games, his father urged him to get counseling. When the National Guard called his father to say that he'd missed weekend duty, Gary Dana pushed his son to get in touch with his unit. "I can't go back. I can't do it," Chris Dana responded.

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http://www.healingcombattrauma.com/2008/01/the-increasing.html

Mental toll of war hitting female servicemembers


Cindy Rathbun, 43, of Yuba City, Calif., reflects on some of the traumatic experiences she had during her 25-year military career. Rathbun is getting treatment for post-traumatic stress disorder and military sexual trauma.
By Jessica B. Lifland for USA TODAY



Mental toll of war hitting female servicemembers

By Andrea Stone, USA TODAY


MENLO PARK, Calif. — Master Sgt. Cindy Rathbun knew something was wrong three weeks after she arrived in Iraq in September 2006. Her blond hair began "coming out in clumps," she says.

The Air Force personnel specialist, in the military for 25 years, had volunteered for her first combat zone job at Baghdad's Camp Victory. She lived behind barbed wire and blast walls, but the war was never far.

"There were firefights all the time," Rathbun says slowly, her voice flat. "There were car bombs. Boom! You see the smoke. The ground would shake."

As the mother of three grown children prepared to fly home last February, she took a medic aside. Holding a zip-lock bag of hair, she asked whether this was normal. "He said it sometimes happens," she says. "It's the body's way of displaying stress when we can't express it emotionally."

Numb, angry, verging on paranoia, Rathbun checked herself into a residential treatment center for female servicemembers suffering the mental wounds of war. Last month, she and seven others became the first all-Iraq-war-veteran class of the Women's Trauma Recovery Program here. The oldest of 12 residential centers run by the Department of Veterans Affairs, it is part of a rapidly growing network of 60- to 90-day programs for female warriors who, until the Iraq insurgency, had mostly been shielded from the horrors of war.
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Tragedy Made Changes At Fort Carson

Over the years I've done a lot of posts associated with Fort Carson. When I did a post about the changes being made at Carson to address the way combat wounded with PTSD are treated, I had no idea why this was happening but I did think it had to do a lot with the new commander, Mark Graham. It turns out his son Kevin was a combat casualty of PTSD. How could anyone at Carson or any other base ignore PTSD after this?

A son dies by his own hand, or so they say. Kevin Graham came home from combat with the enemy in his soul. He had PTSD. He hung himself. People will pass off this kind of death as if it should not count in with the price of war paid by those who serve. Some think it should be a thing of shame, a secret kept by the family and friends.

The only shame belongs to the rest of this nation who allow so many to commit suicide when they know what to do to save their lives. End the stigma and you end the hopelessness. End the silence and you end the barrier of them opening up to get the help they need. Fully fund the VA and open clinics across the nation and you help to heal them. Involve the communities to embrace them as wounded by what they were asked to do and you save their lives.



Our Son died on his own battlefield. He was killed in action fighting a civil war. He fought against adversaries that were as real to him as he casket is real to us. They were powerful adversaries. They took toll of his energies and endurance. They exhausted his last vestiges of his courage and strength. At last these adversaries overwhelmed him and it appeared he had lost the war. But did he?

I see a host of victories he has won.For one thing, he has won our admiration because even if he lost the war, we give him credit for his bravery on the battlefield. And we give him credit for the courage and pride and hope that he used as his weapons as long as he could. We shall remember not his death but his daily victories gained through his kindness and thoughtfulness, his love for family and friends, animals, books and music, for all things beautiful and honorable. We shall remember not his last day of defeat but we shall remember the many days he was victorious over the overwhelming odds. We shall remember not the many years we thought he had left, but the intensity with which he lived the years he had.

Only God knows what this child of his suffered in the silent skirmishes that took place in his soul. But our consolation is that God does know and understands.

http://grahammemorial.com/_wsn/page3.html




MAJOR GENERAL MARK GRAHAM
Commanding GeneralDivision West, First Army and Fort CarsonFort Carson, Colorado 80913Major General Mark Graham became the commander of Division West and Fort Carson on 14September 2007. He was commissioned a Second Lieutenant of Field Artillery on 22 December 1977 at Murray State University, Murray, Kentucky. Following the Field Artillery Officer Basic Course, Major General Graham was assigned to the 1-2nd Field Artillery, 8th Infantry Division, Baumholder, Germany.

During this assignment, he served as a FIST Chief, Fire Direction Officer, Battery Executive Officer and Battalion Special Weapons Officer. Major General Graham has served in command and staff positions throughout the Army in the United States and overseas. His command assignments include: C Battery, Staff and Faculty Battalion, Field Artillery School Brigade, A Battery, 2-18th Field Artillery at Fort Sill, Oklahoma; 1-17th Field Artillery, Fort Sill, Oklahoma; Division Artillery, 40th Infantry Division (Mechanized), Los Angeles, California; 3rd Battlefield Coordination Detachment-Korea; and Deputy Commander/Assistant Commandant, U.S. Army Field Artillery Center and School, Fort Sill, Oklahoma.go here for the rest

http://www.carson.army.mil/Fort%20Carson/cg_bio.html




This site has been established to tell the story of two brothers, inseparable in life and now together again in death.Our goal is for others to know Jeff & Kevin better. Additionally we hope to help you or others that suffer from depression, a dark road where illness can lead to death.

QPR (Question, Persuade. Refer)
SPAN USA (Suicide Prevention Action Network)
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Suicide Prevention Care Fund
American Society of Suicidology
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If we are ever going to remove the stigma it has to begin with it being personal. When the families speak out on what their members go through, others can see how they would feel if it happened in their own family.

Silence makes it all seem as if there is something to hide or something to be ashamed of. These are the same men and women so brave, so committed to this nation, so honorable they were willing to lay down their lives, so patriotic they were willing to set their own personal wealth aside that they enlisted in the military. Most will do their duty for however long they are needed to be deployed, return home, rationally out of danger from the enemy, yet find their battles did not end. While they are no longer in danger from the bombs or the bullets, they kill themselves. How could that be cowardly? How could that be a "preexisting condition" or a "personality disorder" suddenly being a reason to discharge them?Every civilization has recorded combat wounds of the mind and spirit since the beginning of recorded time. This is not new.

This has not changed since man first went into combat against others. So how in this century are we still finding it so hard to talk about? How is it that there are still so many in this nation dismissing it, minimizing it and attacking it? How can they go from being regarded as a hero one day and coward the next day? PTSD is a wound but we are the reason the wound is untreated. How many more can we lose after combat than we do during it and when the hell are they all going to be counted as a price of war? When will we treat their wounds instead of burying them? Go and watch Death Because They Served and then tell me what can possibly still be in your own brain that you cannot grasp how serious all of this is?

Major General Mark Graham and his wife are doing something about this. What are you doing?

Kathie Costos
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"The willingness with which our young people are likely to serve in any war, no matter how justified, shall be directly proportional to how they perceive veterans of early wars were treated and appreciated by our nation." - George Washington

Sunday, December 30, 2007

Mental health treatment for Montana vets lags behind nation

Statistics contradict praise of mental health programs Mental health treatment for Montana vets lags behind nation
By CHRIS ADAMS
McClatchy Newspapers
By CHRIS ADAMS
McClatchy Newspapers
WASHINGTON — Sen. Jon Tester, a Montana Democrat, took officials from the Department of Veterans Affairs to an auditorium at the Montana State University-College of Technology campus in Great Falls last summer to talk about the best way to provide health care to veterans in the region's vast rural areas.

The director of the VA region that includes Montana, Colorado, Utah and Wyoming detailed all that the agency was doing to provide for veterans' health needs — physical and mental.

"Comprehensive mental-health care is one of the top priorities for Network 19," Glen Grippen said, referring to the multi-state Rocky Mountain region. He said that mental health staff had been added recently, specifically for treating post-traumatic stress disorder.

Each medical center now has a suicide prevention coordinator, he said, and the VA's medical centers "actively collaborate with state National Guard and Reserve components to ensure that no returning soldier slips through the cracks."
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Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Forgetting fear? Forget about it.

This is worth a read for the idea alone but not for PTSD.


Can Fear Be Forgotten?
If fear really is all in our heads, Joseph LeDoux thinks he can eliminate it. The first step is to block out our memories

By Michael Behar December 2007
When I was nine years old, my family moved into a newly constructed home in a pleasant Seattle suburb. Within a few days, I began to notice an unsettling number of spiders creeping along baseboards, dangling in closets, and loitering under furniture. I convinced myself that the assault could only be because our digs had inadvertently razed some kind of spider civilization, and these guys were out for revenge. I remember being unable to sleep, spooked by the sight of an eight-legged nasty clinging to the ceiling, waiting to pounce. I would insist that my father leave the stairwell light on so I could track its every move, certain that under the cover of darkness the little monster would sneak into my bed and burrow into my ear canal, where it would lay its sticky spider eggs and spawn a whole new arachnid dynasty. I stuffed wads of toilet paper into my ears as a first line of defense.

Fast-forward 30 years, and I find my repulsion firmly entrenched, seemingly for good. On a recent business trip, I glimpsed a spider behind the nightstand in my hotel room. I summoned the concierge, who duly chased the evil critter into the hall with a broom. "No problem," he smirked when I apologized for my wimpiness. "Happens all the time."

There's a proven treatment for phobias called exposure therapy, better known as "facing your fears." I merely have to immerse myself in a bathtub with hundreds of spiders, let the insects crawl freely over my naked body, and voilà! I'll be cured.

Luckily, New York University neuroscientist Joseph LeDoux, the world's preeminent fear guru, agrees that this tactic might not be the most efficient remedy. Imagine forcing an aviophobe onto a plane—a severe panic attack could trigger a midair rerouting to the nearest loony bin. But LeDoux may have uncovered a better way. After a two-decade-long pursuit into the depths of the brain, LeDoux has shown that it's possible to eliminate deep-seated fears. All you have to do is remove the memory that created it.

Last year, in a landmark experiment in rats, LeDoux opened a path to doing just that. He showed that it's possible to obstruct the memory of a specific traumatic event without affecting other memories. He also demonstrated that when the memory was stifled, the fear it roused vanished as well.

This sudden ability to produce selective amnesia stunned the scientific community. It also offers unimaginable promise. It could relieve soldiers suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) or rid sexual abuse and rape victims of haunting memories. My spiders would be fair game, as would LeDoux's enduring aversion to snakes. Other researchers have been quick to adapt LeDoux's findings. One has already begun experimenting on human subjects, and a startup company has emerged that plans to eliminate fears in the comfort of your own home. All you need is a mail-order box of pills and the accompanying DVD.
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http://www.popsci.com/popsci/science/5c22cc494e617110vgnvcm1000004eecbccdrcrd.html



Why do I say that? Because I've had fears, just like most people have but I've also faced death a few times and I can tell you that the two things are totally different.

I fear public speaking. I will get up in front of a crowd with something I wrote and my tongue will stumble over my teeth. My hands shake and it's hard for me to read the speech. That's a fear but I overcome it by no longer reading speeches, opting instead to just address the crowd with what is in my heart and head. I'm not afraid to speak to people on a one to one basis spontaneously so I forget that I am talking to that many people all at once.

In this case my life was not on the line, just my pride. There were times in my life that my life was in danger. At 4 1/2, I was pushed from the top of a slide and landed on concrete head first. Talk about brain trauma! My scull was cracked and I had a concussion. This caused a fear of heights. Considering I'm doing a lot of flying since moving to Florida, it's something I overcame. I still don't like to fly but I don't have to get drunk anymore just to get on the plane.

Later in my early 20's I was in a car accident. I was rear ended and my car spun out of control ending up in a guard rail. I saw the car heading into it, held up my arms to cover my face. All I could think about was how pissed off my Mother would be to not have an open casket, aside from totally her car. I shouldn't be here now. Needless to say, saying I hate traffic would be an understatement. I still drive and overcame the fear but I also drive mostly in the center or right lane now instead of in the passing lane.

Physical abuse came from my ex-husband and someone else in my life. My father was a violent alcoholic who quit drinking when I was 13. The last life threatening time came after I delivered our daughter. I had an infection that never went away. My bladder ended up developing an infection that turn septic and I almost died then too with a massive infection and a fever of 105. I really shouldn't be here at all. Telling me to just get over the fear and equating it to the fear of public speaking proves some of these experts never faced their life on the line.

I don't have PTSD but I can fully appreciate how so many do develop it. The traumas I've been through go into who I am and what I am, as well as how I think, feel and function. Of all the nonsense I've heard in the treatment of PTSD, this I think is the one that ticks me off the most. Forgetting fear is not the same as making peace with it. And oh, by the way, I really hate spiders too. One landed in my hair when I was trying to kill it and got trapped there. I had really long hair and it must have taken my mother 15 minute just to find it. There are fears that are real and do change lives but those kinds of fears can be overcome. PTSD can be stopped from getting worse but you cannot cure it.

I get really tired of "experts" trivializing the kind of experiences people with PTSD go through and how it changes every aspect of their life. I wish they would finally get serious about this and rely on experts who know what it is like to have PTSD and survive having their lives on the line. Arachnophobia does not come close to a bullet or a bomb or the carnage of combat. What I lived through does not come close to what they go through. It does not come close to having been beaten or raped, surviving floods like the people in New Orleans, surviving fires or being an emergency responder. It does not make it into the ballpark of being a cop or a fireman and if you asked a combat veteran how close it comes to being one of them, they may be polite enough to not laugh in your face.

Kathie Costos
Namguardianangel@aol.com
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"The willingness with which our young people are likely to serve in any war, no matter how justified, shall be directly proportional to how they perceive veterans of early wars were treated and appreciated by our nation." - George Washington

VA in crisis again

VA in Crisis
Tuesday, December 25, 2007, 10:01 PM
By Bob Priddy
Missouri's top veterans official says the Veterans Administration is in crisis again.

Executive director Hal Dulle of the state veterans commission says too many veterans have to wait too long to be accepted in the Veterans Administration system and then have to wait too long to get the medical help they need.

He says, his office works to get veterans to file for their benefits but the VA lacks the personnel to handle the paperwork efficiently. Dulle says the system isn't broken. He says it just doesn't have enough people to handle the increased number of veterans applying for services. The heavy burden is caused by an influx of Gulf war veterans seeking benefits at the same time many Vietnam veterans have decided after 40 years of not being involved...to sign up.

But once the paperwork is processed and the veteran is in the system----there's a lack of doctors. Dulle says part of that problem is that the VA has limited funds...and in a competitive world, the VA has trouble paying enough to keep the specialists the veterans want to see from going into private practice.
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Why is it that when I read something like this I wonder what the hell have I been working for the last 25 years for? Why did I ever think that all that was needed was to get especially Vietnam veterans to seek help for PTSD like my husband did and the problem would be solved?

I've found so much hope over the last two years that the stigma of PTSD would finally dissolve because the media finally paid attention to it. I've never seen so many reports on PTSD and I was glad that I could see the end in what I do. What good has any of it done when people like me can get them to go for help and find that it isn't there for them? How long is this going to go on? How many more years can they be still paying the price for their service ending up being tortured by the system that was supposedly designed to help them?

I read almost every report coming out on PTSD from state to state and across the globe and right now I feel as if it has been one gigantic waste of time. All these years gone for what? Am I pissed off? You bet I am.

I got into all of this so that no other veteran or family of a PTSD would have to suffer needlessly. I expected a lot more out of this nation thinking that once the problem was known, this grateful nation would actually finally step up and prove it. What a fool I was! Years ago there was an excuse but that was so long ago you would think someone with the power to fix this system would have done it by now. You would think that the people in charge would finally live up to what they have claimed. You would also think that common sense and common decency would have caused monumental changes but then you would also have to think that all the elected actually deserve to have been elected to do their jobs.

We put up with men like Senator Larry Craig sitting on the committee and fighting tooth and nail against what veterans in this country need. What happened to him? Did they try to get him off the committee when his record showed he was not putting the interests of wounded veterans first? No. He got the boot from seeking sex in a bathroom stall from another guy who turned out to be an undercover cop. We put up with someone like Nicholson who not only allowed the VA to be under-funded but actually returned millions unused! When the GOP controlled all the committees we put up with their rants of whining over money they didn't want to spend at the same time they didn't bat a eyelash over the hundreds of billions Bush was asking for to make them wounded combat veterans. We also had to put up with the near silence of the Democrats who didn't think it was necessary to alert the media on the seriousness of any of this. Now they have the power they do not use it! Sure they took on Bush and the GOP to get these programs funded by they caved in on what is really needed and necessary. We need emergency funds and changes now, not years down the line only. They can build all the VA hospitals they want but unless they ramp up getting Veterans Centers operational, they will need even more hospitals and homeless shelters for the veterans they do not take care of today.

This is all bullshit! Who the hell is going to take care of the veterans I get to go for help?

Kathie Costos
Namguardianangel@aol.com
www.Namguardianangel.org
www.Namguardianangel.blogspot.com
www.Woundedtimes.blogspot.com
"The willingness with which our young people are likely to serve in any war, no matter how justified, shall be directly proportional to how they perceive veterans of early wars were treated and appreciated by our nation." - George Washington