Showing posts with label healing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label healing. Show all posts

Sunday, May 27, 2018

Memorial Day does not have to include you next time

Leaving Pain Behind You
PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
May 27, 2018 
Commuter: Drives down same road without change.
Sightseer: Just looking at what others found.
Adventurer: Drives down new road to see where it goes.
Pioneer: Makes the roads everyone else takes.
What type of driver are you? Do you look forward to the next part of your journey, or do you constantly look in the rear view mirror?

If you escaped death in the service of others, why wonder where it is now? Why think that the others were worth saving, but you are not? Why look at things through the darkness surrounding you as if there is all there is?

It depends on where your light source is.

These pictures were taken at Glen Haven Memorial Park, at the same time, with the same camera and the same settings. 



There are things we see, then, there are things we just imagine. You may imagine that the pain you feel right now is all there is. Do you want to see things with a different light source?

Then look at the reasons you were willing to die for others to find the reason to live for yourself.
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Sunday, May 13, 2018

PTSD Patrol Sunday Morning Empowerment Zone: Four Tires

Four tires move your forward
PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
May 13, 2018 

My friend Rev. Karen Estes has a message about how all of us need help along the way. One tire won't get you anywhere and you need three more. In other words, if we get help with what we need, then we get to move forward! 

When you are stuck because of PTSD, you may think you do not want to burden anyone else. Those same people would have died for you, but you don't want to bother them? The same people you would have died for, yet you cannot bring yourself to ask them to help you heal?

How is that right? What does that actually say to them when you did not trust them enough with what is going on with you, yet you trusted them with your life in combat?

The Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.”
Genesis 2:18 New International Version (NIV)
The second tire is the buddy, or helper to stand by your side. 
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Sunday, April 29, 2018

Hope spark plug works to heal PTSD

Hope spark plug works
PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
April 29, 2018


If all you hear is negative, how can you find anything positive to fire your imagination? If your car battery only had negative terminals, it would not work, no matter how many times you tried to charge it.


You need something to put energy into your life again. You need some spark plugs to get you going.

This is from Firestone Complete Auto Care but think of it as complete YOU care.

EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT SPARK PLUGS
What do spark plugs do?

Spark plugs are vital to your car’s efficiency!
"Think of spark plugs as the tiniest bolt of lighting. Small but mighty, the spark of electricity that the plug emits across a small gap creates the ignition for the combustion needed to start your car. By putting the engine’s pistons in motion, your car can power up, stay powered up and produce a smooth burn of the compressed air-fuel mixture. Mind you, spark plugs like it hot: they withstand extreme heat and pressure within your cylinders and are built to burn off deposits from fuel additives or other contaminants."
read more here 

Saturday, April 14, 2018

PTSD Sunday Morning Empowerment Zone Early

Fight to take your life back
PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
April 14, 2018


(editors note: filming escort of the Vietnam Memorial Wall tomorrow, so putting these up today instead of tomorrow. It is still the Sunday Morning Empowerment Zone, but just a day early. If that bothers you, watch these tomorrow.)

The road sign is "Hope Road" and nearby they are working on the roads around it, clearly marked by "Construction Entrance." Would be nice if all of us saw the signs like that.

Finding a way to hope is always a process of constructing the way to get there. Feed positive thoughts into it and you'll get there a lot faster. You need help to kick the crap out of you so there is room for good stuff to get in.

 My buddy Jonnie has been going to the American Combat Club in Downtown Orlando. His VA therapist recommended them because they are giving three months of free classes to veterans battling to heal. Besides, he enjoys the fact he can punch stuff without getting into trouble.
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From PTSD Patrol
Think of your brain like the engine of  your car.

Your Mechanic explains how your engine can get clogged.
"Fuel injectors deliver fuel into the cylinder for combustion. Clogged fuel injectors can be caused by debris or impurities in the fuel. Fuel injectors are responsible for getting fuel into the engine. ... The fuel is then ignited and the engine keeps on moving."


All the negative thoughts you put into the thing that drives you stops it from moving in the right direction. It doesn't matter how strong your body is if you don't have fuel to power it. It doesn't matter how smart you are if you're stupid enough to let the impurities invade your brain.

Doubt, fear, anger, paranoia, hatred of others and hating what you believe you turned into, leave little room for all the good stuff to get in.

You stay stuck. If it goes on too long, then you end up with a broken engine that could have been powering healing.

When social media decided that talking about veterans committing suicide was a hot topic, they managed to add all the bad outcomes and none of the good. It is like using the wrong grade of gas to power your ride.

Sunday, March 11, 2018

Don't settle for suffering. Take your life back from PTSD

From my other site PTSD Patrol
"Yesterday, my buddy Jonnie Rodriguez had something he wanted to share. His simple, powerful message of healing. 

When he thinks about what his life was like, when he had no hope of getting out of the hell he was in, and what his life is like now, he gets angry. Angry that others are settling for being defined by PTSD instead of taking control as a survivor."


The road ahead is yours! Stay in neutral, getting numb, feeling sorry for yourself, or get on the road paved by others who have gone before you.

It is a lot of work, but hey, training was hard work too. Your job is/was hard work. But as with any road trip, you can get help to get to where you want to go.

Think about every road has been laid out by someone looking at a forest and figured out how to connect one place to another. Same thing with healing PTSD. It took someone seeking a better way to get through what was keeping them out of where they wanted to go.



Saturday, January 27, 2018

Healing PTSD Is My Business

In the business of spreading healing since 1982
Combat PTSD Wounded Times
Kathie Costos
January 27, 2018

I finally did what one of my co-workers has been after me to do for a long time. Now I can go into work on Monday and say, "Yes I did publicize how long I've been doing this."

I got into the healing business of Combat related PTSD back into 1982. Yes, I am that old. My Dad was a Korean Veteran and my uncles were WWII veterans. On the night my Dad met my then, Vietnam veteran boyfriend, he said "He seems like a nice guy, but he's got shell shock." Never heard that term before. When I asked what it meant, he said "It has to do with war" but he couldn't explain it. He told me to go to the library. 

Basically, he started this but the man I fell in love with and married back in 1984 kept me going ever since.

I am sure you've read about the rants I do regarding reporters not doing their jobs and the awareness raisers taking the easy way out on all of this, but now you'll know why I get so angry.

Two years after researching PTSD, I finally knew enough to write about it. It was mostly in local newspapers. Then I got on the phone to get reporters involved with what families like mine were going through. They ignored all of it.

In 1993, it was doing online research and writing and there were a lot more like me out there. I learned from them and they learned from me too.

My first book "For the Love of Jack" was done in 2000 but I couldn't find a publisher. It was self published 2003.

Wounded Minds is one of the first videos I created back in 2006. I spent a long time going through files to find some of the older ones that used to be up on YouTube. Here are some of them that may prove the point, that taking the easy way out on taking care of our veterans, has been the reason we have lost so many of them. You can watch a couple of hundred more here.

Want to stop supporting people in the business of having fun with talking about suicides or do you want to start publicizing people in the business of healing?

I have a lot of emails saved on what this work meant and the fact that regular people like me can make a huge difference if we take the time to actually learn what this is. 
3/6/2006
Kathie, You may be receiving an E-mail from the 'Huffington Post - Contagious Videos' as I just Registered your video 'Wounded Minds'!!

I posted your name and e-mail on the online registration form, I think you should post the video up there, Hell even All of them, which I just Viewed and will pass on!

Hope you don't mind me taking the Liberty of writing them for you, if so just let me know!

THANKS for putting these together, I'll post them up on my blog: http://imagineaworldof.blogspot.com/ along with LinkBacks to your site and blog, and will be passing All of them on to as many as possible!!!

James XXXXX USN '67-'71 GMG3 Vietnam In-Country '70-'71 Member: Veterans For Peace
And from the Navy
7/17/2006 I saw your PTSD presentation online and want to share it with our Sailors returning from Iraq/Afghanistan. Thanks for providing this much needed information, Ralph
And that lead to even more videos

Sunday, August 27, 2017

Trauma planned the trip but I bought the ticket

Which Train Are You On?
Combat PTSD Wounded Times
Kathie Costos
August 27, 2017

One of the greatest gifts we can give ourselves is doing the work to get to the point where our lives are lived as well as possible. Actually, make that as "good" as possible.

After something happens, we hop aboard the grief train. How long it takes you to get to healing, depends on which train you managed to get on.

Sometimes it is a slow ride, making lots of stops along the way. You are stuck until the train gets moving again. The only mistake you can make on this trip, is getting off without getting back on. 



For me, the train was like the Acela, "fastest trip with fewer stops."




"Superior Comfort, Upscale Amenities, Polished Professional Service, at Speeds up to 150 mph."

Reminder: I am not a veteran but faced life altering events far too many times to be able to reasonably explain inner happiness afterwards without pointing out how human all of us are. I do not have PTSD because of how it was dealt with. Even if you have PTSD, you can live a life where you get to decide your own trip.

Trauma planned the trip but I bought the ticket. I had to pay for what the event did to me as a victim but in the next second I went into survivorship. It didn't get me first time and I did whatever I had to do to make sure it didn't control the rest of my life. It didn't get to plan what I did with my life. It just hitched a ride popping up every now and then to remind me it was there.

Generations of veterans have been dealing with the same struggle as other simple humans but their fellow riders have scattered onto different trains. It can be a very lonely, long trip, if you are surrounded by people who have no clue what caused you to get onboard.

Civilianize yourself again to a point where you can get them to understand it as a human. Unless you surround yourself with other veterans, few will understand what you went through but everyone who survived trauma can understand what it did to you.

Maybe you can learn from this Mom who lost her son because someone else did something wrong. I copied the part that you really need to read first. Please go to the link and read the rest.





'Meeting the man who caused my son's death helped me learn to live and smile again'

Mirror UK
Rachel Toal
August 27, 2017
"Meanwhile, I was left to deal with my bereavement. The sadness I was never able to physically express due to my chest bruising had stayed inside me. Slowly, it was coming out. Counselling and EMDR (eye movement desensitisation and reprocessing) therapy helped to retrain my brain and replace traumatic images with positive memories."
"I discovered a life-changing programme called the Grief Recovery Method, which transformed my relationship with Flynn. Instead of being stuck with painful memories, I was able to remember him with happiness." read more here

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Soldiers trained to kill now training to heal PTSD with yoga

A Breath of Hope
Walter Reed Tries Yoga to Counter PTSD
By Eileen Rivers
Washington Post Staff Writer
Tuesday, May 6, 2008; Page HE01

Derrick Farley, a 29-year-old Army sergeant stationed at Fort Bragg, N.C., has seen many people die. He served in Iraq for three year-long tours of duty with only six-month breaks between them. He remembers driving trucks along the dirt roads of Tikrit, ever alert for telltale signs of a sniper or the sudden blast of a hidden roadside bomb. His vehicle, he said, was hit 13 times.

After he returned home from his last tour, it was often the less tense moments from Iraq that ran through his mind. For months, he had nightmares during which he screamed out in Arabic as he relived run-ins with detainees. At times, the sound of shots ringing out from the firing range at Fort Bragg would launch him right back onto the roads of Iraq.

Farley is far from alone: A Rand study released last month said 20 percent of the approximately 1.6 million U.S. military personnel who have served in Iraq or Afghanistan suffer from symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder.

But recently Farley has found a way to quell the symptoms of PTSD. Instead of allowing his mind to flash back to the roadside carnage, the truck driver pictures himself sitting on a yoga mat at the District's Walter Reed Army Medical Center, taking deep, relaxing breaths.

The techniques Farley learned there from yoga teacher Robin Carnes help him to realize that he's "actually here on Fort Bragg and not in Iraq," he explained by phone from the base.

'They're Not as Angry'


The Specialized Care Program at Walter Reed focuses on helping service members returning from Iraq and Afghanistan leave their wartime experiences behind.

Yoga, Carnes said, has become a large part of that effort.
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When experts began looking at PTSD, it was not just from the veteran's population. It was from all across humanity. PTSD comes from trauma, which is caused by an outside force.


When the idea of the Purple Heart for PTSD and TBI first came to light, there were reasons given against it. Some say that regular people get PTSD too. While this is true, they also get shot at but not in the line of duty and not while deployed into combat. PTSD and TBI come from outside forces and penetrate into the body, but the target of both happens to be the mind. Our soldiers are still humans just like the rest of us and it's time we fully acknowledged this.


We "can" experience PTSD if we are exposed to trauma. Otherwise, whatever is wrong with us, is not PTSD. This is why they call it Post Traumatic Stress and add in disorder because everything in their lives is out of order, contrary to the character they had before. PTSD has been studied and tested since Vietnam and known to exist since the beginning of recorded history. Yes, it does show up on an MRI and is proven in tests.

It is a normal reaction to abnormal events and there is nothing more abnormal than combat and people trying to kill off as many of the "enemy" as they can as fast as they can.

While I labeled the post title with the word "heal" that does not mean cure. All wounds leave behind traces and with PTSD and TBI, they will never be cured but the quality of their lives can be healed. Yoga, T'ai Chi, meditation, are all being tried and have produced results. Each person will find relief from different sources taking care of the body to help the mind by calming the spirit. When all are addressed there is healing.

Post-Traumatic Stress
For the past several years I have had the opportunity to teach a class for the local Veterans Center. This class was sponsored by the Center's resident counselor and psychiatrist and consists of about a dozen participants who range in age from early 30's to about 60. While not true for all of these students, it is felt that a number of these men suffer from post traumatic stress syndrome as a result of their experiences in either Viet Nam or the Gulf War.

Let me state at this point that I make no claims to be a psychiatrist or a psychologist, or to have any extensive training in a Western approach to conditions which we might consider mental disorders. It was the idea, as mentioned, of the medical professionals in the Veterans Center to apply a practice like T'ai Chi as an alternative approach to the difficulties experienced by individuals dealing with this type of condition.

In our day and age it is possible to experience intense and lasting stress in any number of different ways. Any traumatic abuse, be it physical, emotional, or mental, will result in an internal injury which can have lasting debilitating effects. In working with the afore mentioned group, I have made a few observations which I hope may be helpful.

The first is that it a natural response to intense trauma for the individual to want to escape the experience, either during or after or both.. Most individuals are not trained nor prepared to handle the discomfort, fear, and overall intensity the experience presents to them. Even a soldier, who goes through extensive training and seeks to develop a particular mind-set, is probably unprepared for the reality of war. How much more unprepared is a woman who is raped, or an abused child?

So there is a natural and probably necessary mental/emotional strategy to escape from the pain and horror. But unfortunately, if continued over a long period, the result of this escape mechanism is that there is a growing sense of alienation and separation from reality. Reality is a pretty heavy term, and can be a bit ambiguous. In using it what I mean is the ability for any individual to pay attention and function reasonably well (clearly) in respect to present moment circumstances. Because the trauma is experienced, either directly or indirectly, through the physical experience, much of the sense of alienation seems to express itself in the lessening of awareness and connection between the mental/emotional levels and the physical body.

What I have experienced and observed in my work at the Veterans Center is that, in a number of ways, T'ai Chi presents a valuable and result oriented approach to help satisfy the needs of people dealing with this condition. First, and maybe most important, T'ai Chi places great emphasis in the mind/body relationship. A student, regardless of past experience, is supported in returning to a greater awareness of their body. This is emphasized as the basis for good physical health, but in reality, its primary importance is that of mental health. The condition of the mind disconnected from the body, and therefore from present moment experience, is viewed as the primary cause for all confusion, delusion, and mental/emotional pain. The need to reconnect mind to body is a step of the healing process that includes not only those who have experienced extreme traumatic stress, but just about everyone in some manner. In varying degrees, we all suffer from post traumatic stress syndrome.

For a beginner through intermediate level student, T'ai Chi emphasizes a few basic principles. These are to strengthen one's ability to pay attention, to connect that attention to the body experience, and then to relax. All of this is looked at as being very "grounding". In Traditional Chinese Medicine there is a tremendous emphasis placed on the experience and relationship one has to the earth. The earth qualities, the earth energy, is what keeps us physically healthy, emotionally confident, and mentally strong. People who suffer from post traumatic stress syndrome, from a traditional Chinese diagnostic view, would be considered to be deficient in "earth Chi". They lack the qualities of stability, balance, and confidence. So the intent of the practice is to facilitate the individual's ability to reestablish that earth connection, not only to the physical ground, but gradually, to that reality base of what's happening now, both internally and externally. During the process of establishing that sense of reconnection, one is required to look at and resolve or heal any obstruction that stands in the way. No small task, but T'ai Chi would ask "What is the alternative?"

A final idea concerning the place a practice like T'ai chi might have in a clinical setting where other modalities, like psychiatry, might be the dominant approach. The doctor that invited me to conduct this class was wise in his insight that different individuals respond to different methods. The value of T'ai Chi is that it addresses the effects of past trauma in a non-intellectual approach; things are not talked about, one doesn't have to express oneself verbally. Some people do not do well with words (intellect). Yet, in T'ai Chi, issues are dealt with very effectively, over time, because the practice requires that the student apply great amounts of attention towards themselves, initially to the body, but eventually to every level. A student explores their feelings, qualities of experience, and levels of comfort, or lack of. For some people, and I would include myself in this category, this body oriented way of dealing with emotional/mental stress can be a most effective tool.
http://www.ronperfetti.com/specifics.html#ptsd

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

To lay down his life for the sake of his friends.

Do you think God abandoned you still? Come on and admit that while you were in the center of the trauma, you either felt the hand of God on your shoulder, or more often, never felt further from Him. In natural disasters, we pray to God to protect us. Yet when it's over we wonder why He didn't make the hurricane hit someplace else or why the tornadoes came and destroyed what we had while leaving the neighbors house untouched. We wonder why He heals some people while the people we love suffer. It is human nature to wonder, search for answers and try to understand.

In times of combat, it is very hard to feel anything Godly. Humans are trying to kill other humans and the horrors of wars become an evil act. The absence of God becomes overwhelming. We wonder how a loving God who blessed us with Jesus, would allow the carnage of war. We wonder how He could possibly forgive us for being a part of it. For soldiers, this is often the hardest personal crisis they face.

They are raised to love God and to be told how much God loves them. For Christians, they are reminded of the gift of Jesus, yet in moments of crisis they forget most of what Jesus went through.

Here are a few lessons and you don't even have to go to church to hear them.




( Matthew 8:5-13)
As he entered Caper'na-um, a centurion came forward to him, beseeching him and saying, "Lord, my servant is lying paralyzed at home, in terrible distress." And he said to him, "I will come and heal him." But the centurion answered him, "Lord, I am not worthy to have you come under my roof; but only say the word, and my servant will be healed. For I am a man under authority, with soldiers under me; and I say to one, 'Go,' and he goes, and to another, 'Come,' and he comes, and to my slave, 'Do this,' and he does it." When Jesus heard him, he marveled, and said to those who followed him, "Truly, I say to you, not even in Israel have I found such faith. I tell you, many will come from east and west and sit at table with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob in the kingdom of heaven, while the sons of the kingdom will be thrown into the outer darkness; there men will weep and gnash their teeth." And to the centurion Jesus said, "Go; be it done for you as you have believed." And the servant was healed at that very moment.



This sounds like a great act Jesus did. You think about the Roman Centurion, powerful, commanding, able to lead men into combat, perhaps Jesus even knew of the other men this Centurion has killed. Yet this same man, capable of killing, was also capable of great compassion for what some regarded as a piece of property, his slave. He showed he didn't trust the pagan gods the Romans prayed to but was willing to trust Jesus.

Yet when you look deeper into this act, it proves that Jesus has compassion for the warriors. The life and death of Jesus were not surprises to Him. He knew from the very beginning how it would end. This is apparent throughout the Old Testament and the New Testament. He knew He would be betrayed, beaten, mocked, humiliated and nailed to the cross by the hands of Romans. Yet even knowing this would come, He had compassion for this Roman soldier. The Romans had tortured and killed the Jews since the beginning of their empire as well as other conquered people. The Roman soldiers believed in what they were doing, yet even with that, there was still documentation of them suffering for what they did.

Ancient historians documented the illness striking the Greeks, which is what we now call Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. There is evidence this illness hit every generation of warriors. Jesus would be aware that saving the Centurion's slave, because of the faith and trust He placed in Jesus, would be reported from soldier to soldier. Jesus showed compassion even to the Romans.

How can we think that He would not show compassion to today's soldiers? How can we think that He would look any differently on them than He did toward the soldiers who would nail Him to the Cross?

God didn't send you into combat. Another human did. God however created who you are inside. The ability to be willing to lay down your life for the sake of others was in you the day you were born. While God allows freewill, for good and for evil, He also has a place in His heart for all of His children. We humans however let go of His hand at the time we need to hold onto it the most.

When tragedy and trauma strike, we wonder where God was that He allowed it to happen. Then we blame ourselves. We do the "if" and " but" over and over again in our own minds thinking it was our fault and the trauma was a judgment from God. Yet we do not consider that God could very well be the reason we survived it all.

PTSD is a double edge cut to the person. The trauma strikes the emotions and the sense that God has abandoned us strikes at the soul. There is no greater sense of loss than to feel as if God has left you alone especially after surviving trauma and war. If you read the passage of Jesus and the Roman, you know that this would be impossible for God to do to you. Search your soul and you will find Him still there.


For the last story on this we have none other than the Arch Angel Michael. The warrior angel. If God did not value the warrior for the sake of good, then why would He create a warrior angel and make him as mighty as he was?


Michael has a sword in one hand and a scale in the other. God places things in balance for the warriors.

And in John 15:
12 My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.
13 Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.


When it comes to waging war, issuing orders, God will judge the hearts and minds of those who sent you and He will also know your's. If you feel you need to be forgiven, then ask for it and you will be forgiven. Yet if you know in your heart the basis of your service was that of the willingness to lay down your life for your friends, then ask to be healed. Know this. That if Jesus had the compassion for a Roman how could He have any less compassion for you?

Because the military is in enough trouble already trying to evangelize soldiers for a certain branch of Christianity, understand this is not part of that. It's one of the benefits of having I don't care what faith you have or which place of worship you attended. If you were a religious person at any level before combat, your soul is in need of healing as well. There is a tremendous gift when the psychological healing is combined with the spiritual healing. If you have a religious leader you can talk to, please seek them out.



Kathie Costos